I wasn't feeling very motivated to workout this morning. I didn't have a very good night...there were storms, and my dog is so nervous whenever there is thunder. She kept me up for most of the night with her whining and howling, so I was really exhausted this morning. But I'm proud to say that I did the 30 Day Shred anyway! Today was day 12 of the workout, and my second day on level two!
Today is also my oldest son's birthday. He is 29. Just saying that makes me feel so old! How can I be 52 when I still feel like I'm in my 30's? And how did my son grow up so darned fast?
I have two sons, and we are very close. When they were young, tragedy struck. Their father was killed by a drunk driver. I was a frightened 32 year old widow with two sad, confused little boys to raise. My oldest son became very angry at the world, and as he grew into his teen years, his behavior started to go downhill. He began getting into trouble at school, and he started talking back to me. I knew he was still grieving for his father, so I tried to be understanding and loving, but it was a very difficult time. We had a few rough years there, and my son acted like he couldn't stand me. It was heartbreaking for me. On his 18th birthday, he packed up and moved out.
For the next few years, we hardly spoke, even though I saw him several times a week because he got a job working at the same place where my new husband worked. I just gave him his space and kept him in my prayers. It took a while, but slowly as he matured, our relationship improved. He went back to his faith, and he even apologized to me for how he had treated me.
Our relationship now is just what I always wanted. We don't see each other very often anymore, because he has a job now where he works the overnight shift, so he sleeps during the day. But we email each other often, and get together when we can. I am so proud of the young man he has become.
Happy birthday to my dear, oldest son. I love you and I wish you all the very best this year, and always!