Well here I am in month number 2. I had a goal to be down 10 more pounds by August 12th. That is when teachers start back to school in my district. I wanted to be smaller than when I left.
I will be less weight, and have less inches. I just measured my waist and was pleasantly surprised that I lost 1/2". Hip Hop Abs really does work. But I wanted a really nice head start as I gradually neared my end goal of 150 pounds.
But as I look at the scale and realize that I will probably not meet that goal August 12th, I am confident that I will, however, reach that first goal of losing 10 pounds in August. It might be the last week of the month, but I WILL reach it.
This is an important mindset for me. You see, I was never a goal setter or reacher. When I would go into work interviews and they would ask that dreaded question: Where do you see yourself in five years? 10 years? 25? I would go in panic mode. I did not know the answers to those questions because Ii never knew what to say. Goals? How do I make them? And if I can discover what I want to be, how do I make them come to pass? I was at a loss. In fact, why does this matter so much to a future employer? Why are my goals so important to them? Why should they be important to me?
I must say after many years of not knowing how to answer these questions, and not really making any major accomplishments in my life, I think I have a clearer understanding as to why these questions are always posed. I also understand why I never could offer any concrete answers. I was a walking example of a lost, unmotivated, selfish soul.
You see, I do have a purpose. God created me with one. But I never quite connected with it because I was so self-centered that I could not see what was around me. The good thing was that God knew this about me and never gave up on me. I am so grateful to my Heavenly Father for that.
He knew that I was like Charlie Brown, wishy-washy. I went through life making decisions based on what other people expected of me. I was silent and never said my opinion. Then I got married and became self-centered. I looked around and saw that everyone seemed to take from me. no one cared about what I wanted or even if I desired anything at all. I was cleaning up messes that I did not make and Donna got lost in the shuffle. So, I started sticking up for me.
Now sticking up for yourself is not a bad thing, unless you let it rule your life and the lives of your family. That's what I became. All about Donna. If it did not suit my purpose, it would not happen. So, if you want something, I get the first say. I make money, I should be able to spend it on me and everyone else gets the leftovers. My time was ME TIME. Enough about everyone else. It was time for me to be noticed.
But I was never noticed. In fact, I turned into a nagging old witch. Ranting about anything and everything not going to my plans. The only attention I got was aggression because I was like a dripping faucet...never ending and so annoying!
I was a wreck. And so was my life and everything in it.
I ballooned to 240 pounds and then went into the hospital because I had diabetes and did not know it. God was trying to get my attention. He did. But it was not until a month ago that I really started to listen and obey. I am so glad that I did.
You see, it is not all about me. It is important for Donna to be in the mix of things, but not the main story all the time. It is about Donna finding her purpose and discovering how she can find her God-given destiny. I need to be asking how I can fulfill God's plan for my life? Not how Donna can be noticed or how Donna's plans can be accomplished. It is about how Donna can accomplish God's plans.
So, why are goals so important? They help us to stay on track. They are a map of our day to day lives and how we use them for good. If I continued to eat whatever I wanted and neglect daily exercise, I will NEVER be able to reach the goals that God has purposed for me. And that would be devastating. I do not want to let my Father down. I owe Him my life. The least I can do is follow His plan for me.
So, today I will think about my goals, His goals and how they work together. I will not give up. I will not go back to who I was. I am determined to be all I can with God's guidance and help. God's goals are my desire. My life is worthless without working toward His purpose in me.