Friday, July 12, 2013
I always assumed I was one of those "fat but healthy" people. I've never had any medical issues or complaints, so getting healthy was a far second to just looking better as far as my weight loss motivation. Now, at 30, I realize I am not as healthy as I thought I was. For one, I am ALWAYS, and I mean ALWAYS exhausted. I feel like I'm in a fog or a daze. My resting pulse rate is high (about 95-100 BPM) and my blood pressure is around 130/80, which is pre-hypertensive. I'm not sure about blood sugar levels, but I would not be surprised if that was elevated as well. I started looking at what I was eating, and I realized every single thing I eat is copied and pasted directly from the "foods to avoid" list. I drink energy drinks and espresso drinks like they're going out of style just to try to combat my exhaustion. I stay up late and snack to keep myself awake, because I dread going to bed because going to bed means I have to get up and go to work, and I hate my job. I don't perform well at my job...because I am exhausted and I can't focus or think clearly.
Today, however, I received a sign. I don't really believe in signs, but I need motivation, so I'm calling it a sign. My gym called and asked if I'd like to keep my membership on suspend again this month. I said no, charge the monthly dues to my card. Then I made a smoothie. Not a high fructose corn syrup, more sugar than candy smoothie. This smoothie was green. It was loaded with spinach, citrus fruits (the fresh frozen organic kind) some plain greek yogurt, chia seeds (ch-ch-ch-chia!) and water. I put in some no-cal sweetener, too, because it tasted pretty terrible. After the sweeteneer it was delicious, and I swear I could feel the anti-oxidants, micro/macro nutrients, fiber, mini supermans, flavenoids, vitamins and all the other whatever stuff being pumped through my veins to my weak muscles by my sluggish and ill-worked heart. So, my goal is this. TWO,yes TWO of these superfood smoothies per day (I made them for tomorrow already!) more water, and exercise every day, even if its just a walk.
Its shocking, but I am not as immortal as I thought. I just want to see what it would feel like to not feel tired, dizzy and sick all the time. To feel happy and energized, not in pain and sluggish. I really want to know what if feels like to feel comfortable in one's own body.