Thursday, July 11, 2013
So after lots of hours of feeling like a failure I finally snapped out of it. Basically it is what it is. If I am eating 3 avocados while juicing it means something is slightly off. It just feels so weird to actually honor the body and give it what it needs. My relationship with it has not been the best for the past 37 years. Family that loved me conditioned me to listen to them and not my body for the survival needs. It was all disguised as love. And it worked for a couple of years - but then It back fired. And they all turned against me. I was confused and still am about the food=love=betrayal aspect of the day to day meal ceremonies. Yes... I tried to punish my body for it not functioning the way others did. ANd then I punished it even more by giving it all the wrong things and not giving it movement and love.
Juicing has taught me a lot. First of all how if you put good things in your body, your body will thank you by releasing the fat, the diseases the emotions you hold on to. It's not an easy path but it is an enlightening one. I like the changes and I guess I was upset because I wanted the changes to continue rapidly. So this is some time to take it easy and go inward. Deal with the demons that still haunt me and zap them away so the rest of the travel can be light and airy.
I was really questioning though this craving of fat. So I researched about the mega dose of Vitamin D I am taking for 8 weeks ( 2 weeks left) and it seems it needs healthy fat to do it's job. So there :) I feel better.