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Focusing on the long view

Thursday, July 11, 2013

I made a commitment to myself to get in shape and get back into a level of health beginning on January 1. I had made great progress towards a weight goal until mid June and then once again I seem to get discouraged by an emotional rupture within one of my friendships. This has happened before and I have allowed this pain to spread to my view of the worthiness of my being healthy, fit, and trim. I haven't truly examined why I allow this influence this part of my life. I am the only one it hurts when I "fall off the wagon" and when it happens its as if I am reinforcing my feelings of being unworthy of true happiness and contentment. But its strange because I can see from an objective standpoint how this behavior doesn't serve me and my goals but yet when the time come to eat healthy, or go for a walk or a work out, I choose the sabotaging behavior or meal...... There is a great thought leader Marianne Williamson and she talks about our fear of being great as the real reason behind our unwillingness to succumb to the ordinary life. I wonder if that is what is holding me back from "fighting the good fight" day in and day out. Something to think about until my next post.

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KOFFEENUT 7/11/2013 6:36PM

    You bring up a good point! Why IS it that we allow ourselves to be derailed from the things we KNOW will make us healthier? Why do we actively choose things we know won't help us arrive at where we want to go? Good questions to reflect on in order to be more consistently headed in the right direction on my journey!

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