Thursday, July 11, 2013
I feel like I'm mentally in a place where I want to change, but don't want it badly enough. I want to be fitter and lose weight, but I don't seem to be making the actual effort to do so, even when it's easy enough. Like, not doing the hard work to it (in working out hard) or not eating when I know I'm not hungry but have a craving for *something*.
Last night I was feeling snacky after getting home around 9:30pm from running errands etc & picking G-Man up. I knew I wasn't hungry, but really wanted something, so I got myself a frozen pudding (if you haven't thrown pudding cups or those yogurt tubes in the freezer to eat during the summer, you're missing out!) because it's only about 100 cal. Everything would've been fine, but G-Man & I sat down to game together a little bit and he was hungry, so he had heated up a can of refried black beans with onions & cheese, and brought in a bag of tortilla rounds. I held out for awhile, but it smelled so good & was right there that I had some...and then couldn't seem to stop myself even though I mentally checked in & realized I should stop.
I'm not saying I go overboard all the time or anything, but i'm basically maintaining instead of losing. I need to figure out what's holding me back & why I'm being so lazy.
Today's lovely though, so I think I'm going to go for a walk or bike ride!