Thursday, July 11, 2013
I'm feeling so good lately! I feel like it has something to do with being more accepting of myself, my needs and wants. I have let go of the "all-or-nothing" notion, that if I'm not perfect ALL the time, I just won't succeed. I'm letting go of beating myself up for the shoulda-woulda-coulda types of mind tricks after I make a mistake. I'm even letting go of the idea that a day or meal which exceeds my weight-loss calorie range is a mistake. If I want an indulgence more than I want to stay on track, that is perfectly okay sometimes.
It is liberating to start feeling more at peace with my decisions and choices. Even when they're not always the "best" choices. It's okay. I can hold myself accountable and it isn't a negative, drill-sergeant type of thing.
Last night I made pizza for dinner, and I very deliberately kept my serving size in the realm of the reasonable. There was "dialogue" in my head about wanting to eat more because it's so yummy, versus enjoying the portion which fit into my meal plan. I reminded myself that the decision either moves me closer or further from my goal. I served myself one slice at a time, and ate slowly to savor it. I only sliced half the pizza, so that if I intended to overeat, it had to be more intentional than just grabbing one more bite. That second half of the pizza got frozen, so we have another meal for later. I have a hard time moderating those leftovers sometimes, now it's "off-limits."
I know it's all the better to enjoy a reasonable serving of something, then I get the satisfaction of knowing I am right on track. Tonight, I'm making pasta! This is another meal I sometimes struggle to eat moderately. I plan to cook only half the 16 oz. box of pasta, and fix a great big salad to go with it. Woo-hoo!