Thursday, July 11, 2013
I'm supposed to compliment myself? Isn't that something (especially as women) we're taught not to do? So this feels weird and awkward. I don't see myself the way I see other people. And for that matter, I don't see myself the way other people see me. So I always have trouble finding good thimgs to say about myself, even though I have no trouble saying nice things about my friends.
I have to admit though, I am pretty good at my job. I have an organized mind, and I've gotten good at running my office on my own. If I totally sucked at it, I wouldn't still be here. I'd have been replaced months ago. So I need to stop focusing on the occasional error and believe the people who tell me I'm doing well.
I may have to work harder than many to lose weight, and it's easy to feel discouraged. But I have done that work, and lost more than 20 pounds this year. It feels great to be able to fit into a smaller size, even if I'm not losing weight faster. I love that I'm determined enough and motivated enough to keep going, even if it is hard.
And instead of focusing on the fact that I'm still learning how to edit and revise, I will celebrate my ability to write. I have now written a screenplay and six manuscripts, and am working on a seventh. I can write 50,000 words of a novel in 30 days. I've done it five times now. This is a task daunting enough that I can't convince any of my friends or family to even try it. And yet I KNOW I can do it, because I already have. I'm not sure if that makes me a Super-writer, or just crazy.
And here's a fourth compliment...I managed to say three good things anout myself!