"If Only" Fantasies
Thursday, July 11, 2013
Yes... Beck came to a screeching halt between hubby's birthday and the 4th celebrations. While I did not totally fall off the wagon, I was precariously hanging on and was mindful most of the time, I did fall prey to temptations.
So I decided to lie low until I got my blood tests back and visited my endocrinologist. The bad news I expected wasn't that bad, however my current path will lead to poorer results in the future. What to do.. well the Doc gave me a new script to help me get back on track. While I am not fond of the idea of more meds... if it helps.. well I girl has to do what she has to do. Lowering my blood glucose might help my digestive track get back to normal. The good news is I lost 4 of the pounds I had gained.
I could sit here mired in the "if only" thinking, bit that will not help me move forward.
My son invited me to come visit. It is a 4.5 hour drive, I have seen signs that state 44 mile until the rest area. Yikes... I have been saying "if only" my tummy wasn't rumbling I would go see my grandbaby. Well I may just go for it. I have been feeling a bit better lately. Plus the change of scenery might help. As the quote posted on my 7/3 blog inspired me.... I want to act... not react. I do not want to be held back by "If Only" illusions. Life will not be perfect when an "If Only" comes about... reality rules. We have what we have. I am finding a ways to take action.
Making the trip become a reality is scary. I am taking my 25 year old son, who is developmentally like a 5 year old(who doesn't listen to his mom.) He cannot be left alone, as no five year old should be. And the digestive issues... are scary even at home. Sitting here saying "if only" is holding me back, so I will face my fears and develop back up plans.
make this trip happen,
deal with whatever arises.
I can ...
return to my path of a healthy lifestyle.
I CAN !!!!