Thursday, July 11, 2013
I'm grateful I seem to have been able to turn this week around. It's been a rough couple of weeks. I've been struggling to be back to clean eating following vacation, dealing with depression and stressing out about the job hunt (I was offered a really good job and i had to turn it down because they wanted a 2 year commitment and we are probably moving next year due to my husband's internship... everyone says I should have taken it any way and just left but I'm not like that, and I know my next job could be dependent on a good word from this one.) I got nothing done Monday or Tuesday and was feeling pretty lousy about it. And my knees have been really sore. I've iced them every day after working out, but it hasn't been enough. I'm going to see a doctor about it tomorrow.
...But now I am back in action. I've worked hard to get my nutrition back on track and that has improved 100%. I am back down to my pre-vacation weight. It took 10 days but really that's not so bad. I am really, REALLY happy about Spark People's new fitness tracking integration that now automatically adjusts your calorie range when you enter your workouts.
One thing that has kept me going is my fitness. I did the benchmark workout earlier this week and improved my time from 14:40 to 12:30 over the last month and a half. When I get frustrated I try to remember how far I've come. Last week I dropped a size in my hiking pants, from 16 to 14. Heck, the fact that I even own a pair of pants specifically for hiking says something about how far I have come over the last 7 months.
The weight is coming off slowly. I am 15 pounds down from December. My Coach is happy with this. He doesn't want me losing weight too fast. I'm sort of getting impatient lately but I need to step back and remember that's not what it's all about. What it's all about is being stronger than I have ever been in my life.
It's all happening. I just have to trust the process.