Day 31: The Real ME and the Past
Thursday, July 11, 2013
As I celebrated one month of healthy living yesterday, i found myself in a quandary last night. A battle of the wills, no less. I was NOT hungry, but I began thinking of myself pre-healthy living, and how I ate all the time. I mean this was every hour for no apparent reason. I would eat, eat, and eat. It was like my stomach would never get full. NEVER! So, I kept eating.
I have been looking at my daily consumption and patting myself on the back for a job well done in staying within my calorie allowances. Then I heard it. I want something salty. I looked at the clock. It was after 8 pm. I said to myself, "Donna. NO! It is after 8 pm and you do not need any more calories." Then came the reply, "But not only did you work out, you also were on your feet most of the day painting and cleaning the bathroom. You can eat more and be fine."
AAAHHHHHHH! Away from me Satan!!!! The memories of the past have a way of tempting me. Nay. They want to trip me up. My past wants my present to fail. How can that be? I guess gluttony loves company. But this girl, right here, has had enough.
Lucky for me I had to do some dishes and take the garbage out. It got my mind off of food. Funny though. I did add an fudgesicle stick to my snack and I never ate it. I am very happy about that! It is only 40 calories, but by not eating it, I proved to myself that I can be victorious over my binge eating of the past. I can walk away from it and not feel deprived, but rather, encouraged. Dare I say it, down right proud of myself.
So I say goodbye to my past self and every unhealthy part. I bid you adieu. Good riddance! Never see you later!