July 11, 2013 - Day 41 on Atkins - Or Is It?
Thursday, July 11, 2013
Truth time. I've read lots of "Dr. Atkins" material. Stuff he wrote and stuff other people wrote about what he wrote. My brain knows the truth! The truth is, Dr. Atkins, supported a "diet" - aka: way of living/eating - that is complete with protein, non-starchy veggies and fat . . . at every meal. He did not recommend "diet" coke, "diet" dr. pepper, overdosing on nuts, high protein/low carb "processed" foods or other low carb "cheat" foods. Real food! That's what he taught. Eat real foods that are high in protein and fat, low in carbohydrates. Oh, and drink lots of water. That's it. Pretty straight forward. Pretty simple.
I have to confess - my "current" eating program really doesn't resemble Dr. Atkins' suggested program. I am not eating "real" protein with each meal, I am not eating low-carb veggies in the recommended amounts and I am not being selective about my fats. Instead, I'm doing what I always do. . . looking for short cuts, looking for modifications, looking for ways to eat the foods I really love - while fooling myself into believing that I'm "eating on program". Ha! Liar! Karen is liar! There! I said it!!!
So what have I been doing? Well, I've been using lots of Atkins "products". Protein shakes and bars. . . the ones that resemble candy bars. Those things are processed and should be consumed in small amounts. . . if at all. For me? They've kind of become a staple. Also, my "one ounce" of nuts, is probably more like 5 ounces or 6 or 7. Ugh! I love, love, love nuts because I can use them to "snack" on. Anytime I need to feed my "oral, instant gratification demon", I pull out the nuts and snack, snack, snack away. At 170 calories per serving, I'm probably eating an extra 1000 calories a day. Not good! Not good at all! Oh, and I have officially fallen in love with low-carb ice cream. Dr. Atkins does not recommend eating dairy, but I've convinced myself that because it's low-carb, it's ok. Ha! It's not ok - rather, it's a way to cheat while telling myself that I'm staying on program. As if all that isn't bad enough, I've discovered sugar-free candy. OMG. Have you ever eaten sugar-free candy? Wait, that's not the right question. Have you ever over-eaten sugar-free candy? If so, then you likely already know the evils of chemicals like maltitol and sucralose! If not, let this be a warning. Stay away from sugar-free candy unless you have access to the toilet 24/7!
So I sat myself down last night and got good and honest with me. What am I doing? Why am I doing this? The first 3 weeks went so well! I know the "real" Atkins program works, so why am I not following it to a "T"? And here's what I came up with. . . b-o-r-e-d-o-m! I am BORED! There simply aren't enough real food options and no real good "snack" items. I can't even snack on celery - not really - because celery has carbs and it is possible to over-eat on something as bland and boring as celery! See how my brain just did that? I don't really like celery - so my brain is like. . . no, no, no - don't eat the celery - OMG - you'll blow your carb count if you do!!! But! Go ahead and have an extra helping or two or three or four of nuts - oh, and go ahead and have 6 servings of low-carb ice cream while telling yourself that it's really only 1/2 cup (1 serving). I really am very good at lying to myself when doing so feeds a need in me.
What to do, what to do? I think I've come up with a balanced solution. I'm going to weigh myself this Saturday and see whether my body is responding to this "junk" I've been eating. I'm sort of secretly hoping the scale will fail me - because that will give me the "pass" I feel I need to switch up my "diet". If Bertha ain't kind (Bertha is my scale), then I'm going to lose the high fat meats, lose the nuts, add more veggies/salads, add apples/berries/oranges and try to keep my caloric intake under about 1500 per day. I'll still eat plenty of protein - I'll just make it the "lean" kind. My mouth is watering just thinking about how good an apple would taste right about now. And honestly, I have to believe that an apple or an orange or some strawberries would be soooooo much better than the processed Atkins bars I've been eating.
Wow! That felt good! Cleansed the soul! Told the truth! No secrets!!! That's my commitment to my SP friends. . . to myself. Secrets slowly kill us. Kill our spirits. So I'm not having that in my life anymore. If I do it - I own it - and I'm going to be honest about it. That's what I've done here today. I've been brutally honest. And it felt. . . amazing!
How about you? Are you easily able to stay on the program you've chosen for yourself? Or are you struggling like me - finding ways to "cheat" - while telling yourself that you're really not? I challenge you to do a self-inventory. Tell the truth. Some very wise person once said, "the truth will set you free" - and I'm putting it to the test! Got any "secrets" you care to share? If so, I encourage you to share them here. . . in this safe, supportive community.