Thursday, July 11, 2013
I have been a member of TOPS (Take Off Pounds Sensibly) now for 13 1/2 years, most of that I have been a KOPS (Keep Off Pounds Sensibly) and this year would have been my 10th consecutive year. In TOPS, once you reach your goal, you have what is called a leeway, which is 7 pounds below goal and 3 pounds above. Tuesday morning I weighed in on my scale and was 146.8, my goal weight is 145, so I was sure that I was back in leeway, even though I knew that the TOPS scale weighs me about a pound heavier, I still should have been safe. WRONG! When I stepped on the scale Tuesday evening it kept teetering between 148 and 148.25. The weight recorder wrote down the higher weight and I said no, I can't be, I'll lose KOPS. So she changed it to the lower weight. Well one of the other officers heard this but didn't say anything right away. She used to be a KOPS too and lost her status a while ago. She told another officer, who in turn told our leader, who then came to me and asked me to re-weigh. I should have said no because I'd already eaten a snack and changed clothes but I obliged and weighed again, out of leeway.
Now you can probably imagine how upset and mad I was but it doesn't stop there. After roll call, another member spoke up and said that she didn't think it was right for me to have had to weigh in again and lose my status over a quarter pound. Several other members agreed. That's when this vindictive person said, and I quote "I was a KOPS for 8 years and I lost my status, whoopee. What's it matter". I lost it!! I grabbed my things and started to walk out but turned around crying and said "you know, I have given a lot of years to this chapter. I've been an officer for many years and it DOES matter!! I'M DONE" And with that I walked out.
I cried all the way home, I cried on my husband's shoulder, I cried myself to sleep, what little sleep I got, and when I woke up, I cried some more. I was still crying some yesterday at work and it was hard to keep the tears back when I ran into our leader at Subway. We had a long talk. No one wants me to quit, except the person that said those hurtful and hateful words. I still don't know what I'm going to do but I may not go back for a week or two if I do decide to go back. I love TOPS and I love my chapter except this one person that thinks the world revolves around her.
Okay enough. Thanks for listening to my rant.