Wednesday, July 10, 2013
Well, I finally saw the doctor today. The first thing she did was to chew me out for not calling her sooner! She ordered some lab work to see exactly where my health is, although she DID say that I have sturdy heart and lungs, which is at least a relief.
I've resisted antidepressants but she said, "Listen to your doctor!" and prescribed Celexa for me (yes, Mom). So that effectively settles the alcohol question, because you can't drink while taking antidepressants. I'm having a little "going away" party tonight, then whatever is left over is getting poured down the sink. I also have to see a psychiatrist soon to talk about the depression (this in addition to seeing Arthur). She's also scheduling me for a sleep study because I'm such a touchy sleeper. This may or may not indicate anything, since I've been an insomniac literally since infancy. But I'm having the study, and I may need a CPAP. Not sure how I'm going to get that big, honkin' monster into my bedroom, but we'll see.
Finally, she strongly urged me to look into weight loss surgery. She said she thinks I'm a good candidate for it, so I'm going ahead with it. Obviously, there's a long process involved, so nothing will happen in the next week or so, but we'll see. One of the big things that stopped me before was that they used not to do it in my area. I would have had to go to San Diego, about 600 miles south of here. But that's changed, and they do it here in Northern CA now. Lot to be learned and figured out yet.
The biggest problem I'm having right now is the sense that this all means I failed -- that I wasn't emotionally strong enough to fight off the depression, that I didn't have the spine to lose weight without intervention. Something I need to discuss with Arthur and with the psychiatrist.
Meantime, she doesn't think I have ALS. She said she gets hand cramps as well, and she's sure it's just garden-variety carpal tunnel. That would be the least of my issues right now!
Oh -- and she gave me two hugs before I left. Probably the medicine I needed most.