Wednesday, July 10, 2013
If I don't improve the way I eat and exercise, in one year I will be .... And in 5 years I will be...
To me, these questions are necessary to keep me honest. The fact is that I KNOW what it is like not to eat and exercise properly and have seen the effects of that year after year for far too long.
Quite simply if I do not improve the way I eat and exercise, I will died. Maybe not in one year or even five years - but I will die.
Spiritually, I am fighting to hold on right now. I am holding on with the hope that something will click and move me to eat better and exercise consistently. I am trying to let go of the past and move forward and forget about my unsuccessful attempts. I view each day as another opportunity to do better and focus on what I did right the day before - no matter how small.
I acknowledge that I have placed too much emphasis on the right size in my social interactions with men. I am trying to get outside my own comfort zone to expand my social contacts so that I can really enjoy life and not simply work and take care of family.
Spiritually, I need to improve the way I eat and exercise for peace of mind and more personal fulfillment. I want to be the "after" picture.
Physically - that is pretty plain based on my 200+ pounds on a 5'2" frame. Right now I only have to deal with a prediabetic diagnosis. In the past I had high blood pressure, sleep apnea and difficulty with breathing with slight exertion. All those things lurk in the shadows and will return if I don't get more weight off my body. I really do believe that all the years that I have struggled with weight loss will dramatically affect my physical well-being as get older. I want to enjoy vibrant, active senor years. Not one where I have worry about blood pressure, diabetes and more.
Today's questions is a great reminder why I need to improve my eating and exercise. And I am not going to give up on myself.