Wednesday, July 10, 2013
I am now in the middle of a forced week of rest, following some physical symptoms that are leading to more tests and, yes, a suspicion that there may be cancer again. This is the fourth (4th!) cancer scare I've had since the new year, and I'm getting mighty tired of it.
It comes back to a blog I wrote a while ago, where I realized that although I do know and rely upon the Serenity Prayer, I have yet to find the "wisdom to know the difference". I have no sense whatsover of when I should push myself, when I should rest, how to measure and count my "spoons".
So while I'm off this week, I'm re-reading my previous blogs and trying to identify some way forward that will take me through the ups and downs. As it is, it's been two steps forward and one step back (or worse!). This is exhausting and has got to stop.
If anyone has any ideas out there, I'm more than happy to listen!