Feeling discouraged; trying to find some inspiration and motivation
Wednesday, July 10, 2013
The big 7-mile race is in less than 3 weeks, and I am not even close to being able to run 7 miles at this point! Last night I went on a run after work. It was around 90 degrees and very humid, so I thought that I would just run on the treadmill, but the display on my treadmill doesn't work now! I've had this treadmill for a really long time, so I knew it was just a matter of time before it pooped out on me, but it couldn't have picked a worse time to do it! And we don't really have the money right now to purchase a new one, so I have no choice but to run outside! I didn't even make it 1/2 mile before my chest became heavy and it was hard to breath because the air was so hot and humid. I did a 3-mile run, but most of that was walking. I was so discouraged that I wanted to cry!
I woke up this morning still feeling really disappointed, and I'm regreting signing up for this race. What was I thinking? I think I picked way too big of a goal for myself. I posted my disappointment on Facebook and I got just the reaction that I needed: encouraging words from friends that I can do this, that even if I don't run the whole race, I'm still doing it, I'll still finish it, and that there will always be goals out there to strive for and just because I might not necessarily achieve this goal, there will be lots more goals that I will conquer! I have the greatest friends in the world!
Besides, running in 90-degree humid weather is hard for anyone, let alone a novice runner like me! I need to cut myself some slack! Today, the weather is cooler and there is no humidity, so I will put on my running shoes when I get home and try it again. I'M NOT GIVING UP ON MYSELF!