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This is what happends when I don't get a workout

Wednesday, July 10, 2013

Paranoia. Definately paranoia. When my bran is not busy with other things, like work, math homework. or a nice long workout, I get scared and depressed. There are a multitude of reasons I can have an anxiety attack, starting from the latest stupid thing I did at work to my weight, health and future. Future is the general boogey man in my closet. After my job here is done, I will be unemployed. I have a degree, but I've never been able to find work in my field. The field I am currently working in is shrinking, and with my health issues I may not be able to keep this it up either. At this point I have two choices: take up a part-time position while looking for a new job, or go back to school. The problem with going back to school is that I would accumilate student loans, and what if I cannot find a job in the field I get a degree in? I am in my 30s, and the thought of working in a mall somewhere trying to pay off six-digit school loans for the rest of my life scares the heck out of me. Well... my resume is polished up, my suits are dry cleaned. I guess all I can do at this point is work out, lose weight, take as many classes as I can and try to maintain optimism. Looking at the bright side, maybe I can get a part-time job at the local gym or health food store. That would be fun.

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MMILLER139 7/10/2013 8:29AM

    emoticon You will be fine. You will be alive through it all and it will all work out! If something doesn't go your way, that's okay! Enjoy the life you've got, no matter the financial situation, you've only got one life! Sure it sucks sometimes, it gets rough, but there is still air to breathe, flowers to smell, babies to giggle, and plenty of other people to enjoy life with! emoticon emoticon All's well that ends!

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KAMINEKO 7/10/2013 8:25AM

    I've noticed that when I don't workout those negative, depressive thoughts come rolling in for me too. Something about daily exercise, that purge of everything that comes with sweating, helps to keep me a bit more grounded and happier than when I am sedentary.

Keep positive. Today you'll get back on track and your situation will seem better than this. Think of possibilities and potential. Hang in there!

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