Wednesday, July 10, 2013
My reasons... my 6 year old daughter is being cruel with her honesty. I can't really punish her for telling the truth even if it is hurtful to me. I have explained that it hurts my feelings and that she shouldn't say things like that. Her retort: "but mom is it is true". And it is :(
I think my heart might be giving out, literally. I need a Dr's appt but at the same time I am sooo scared of what i will be told. I have 4 kids and a husband who need me. I'm afraid the Dr will say it's too late, there is nothing to do but wait to die. I don't think I could handle that news.
I'm sick and tired of being sick and tired. I don't live...I just exist. I need to change that for myself and my family. I'm a lump. That's it. Just a lump.
I'm scared. Scared of what might be wrong with me, and scared it is all just too little too late. I'm scared of trying and failing. I'm scared of my own darn shadow most days. I need help.
I NEED TO BE LESS THAN I AM PHYSICALLY AND BE MORE THAN I AM MENTALLY AND EMOTIONALLY.