seeing myself through the Zumba mirror
Tuesday, July 09, 2013
I am suffering through my 2nd sinus infection in 3 weeks but today I managed to make it to Zumba. I haven't been to Zumba in just under a month. By the way, I am medicated and not contagious. I went to a different gym than usual and had a crazy out-of-body like experience. I didn't recognize my body. I knew my eyes. I am familiar with my jaw-line now. I was completely caught off guard by my body. For a moment I thought they had a funny mirror. I assumed the mirror was making me look thinner, leaner, normal. So I tried to compare the bodies of the other class participants to their images in the mirror. They looked like their mirror-image. As I danced along the music I was in awe and impressed with the shape that is coming together under these layers of fat. For the first time in Zumba history, my stomach didn't flap noticeably. We actually did this side stretch thing and my gut stayed put! I also wore some pretty short workout shorts and while my loose skin peeked through sometimes, I wasn't ashamed! I honestly felt like the strangers in the room would never know that I was morbidly obese. I have got to keep this energy and excitement going and roll with it so that I can knock out 10 more pounds before the Big Day. And I have GOT to find a way to get that Zumba mirror!