Tuesday, July 09, 2013
I am 43, married, a mother of 2 adult boys and soon to be a grandmother. I married my wonderful husband 14 years ago this coming September 11.
When we met, I was a small size 2, now, not so much, or should I say now, so much more than a 2. I do not want nor do I need to get back to that size 2, I was really too skinny then, but a nice 6 or 8 would be great.
I finally decided that I could no longer be this "fat" person that I am now. I am only 5 foot tall so weight is definitely not my friend. I am very unhappy with the way I look so much so, that I find that I dress sloppy, I don't do anything with my hair besides wash it and throw it in a pony tail and I hardly ever put makeup on, I don't even have much of a sex drive because I don't like how I look. That really is not who I am, I have always taken pride in myself and I really feel that it's not fair to myself or my husband to have let myself go like I have.
6 years ago I made the decision to quit smoking after years of thinking about it and I did it...COLD TURKEY. It was a struggle, I became depressed and withdrawn for about 3 months, the nicotene would leech out of my skin and would itch. It was horrible, but I had made up my mind to quit for myself. That is how I am feeling now about my weight. I have made up my mind now and I will succeed.
I am working on the healthy eating and have lost a total of 8 pounds since I started my journey less than 10 days ago. I needed to start that first and get into better habits or at least be able to figure things out on my own. I still need some assistance on calorie counting and the healthier eating habits, but I think I am ready to start working on a fitness plan now too.
Join me in my journey back to myself and someday I hope to be that inspiration to that person that feels the same way I do now, that person that has been "thinking" about getting healthy.