Tuesday, July 09, 2013
Here I am, back at square one. Well, not really. You see, things are worse this time around. Instead of being at my starting weight of 320 lbs., I am now at the starting weight of 339.5 lbs.
Also I now have high cholesterol which my doctor wants to try to control with diet and exercise. I agree. There is no way I want to add another medication added to what I already take for depression and arthritis. But I am very thankful that everything else on the inside is okay.
I do have one more problem. I need to have a left knee replacement, but the doctor will not even consider it without weight loss. I need to lose at least 100 lbs.
For the first time in my life I am taking my health very seriously. I have prayed about it, and I felt a release to consider bariatric surgery. I have never wanted to go this route, but I have felt I have tried everything else and nothing else works. So I go for my first seminar on July 17th.
I have done a lot of reading concerning the surgery, and I know several people who have had the surgery. The conclusion that I have come to is that if I want it to be successful, I need a lifestyle change. I have to change the way I eat, and it has to be a permanent change unless I want to end up in the hospital over and over again for eating wrong, and consuming the wrong things. So if this is what I have to look forward to, I believe it is time for mind over matter. If I have to change my lifestyle after a surgery, then why can I not do it before surgery and lose the weight on my own?
I am going to have to go through six months of counseling, and changing the way I eat. The way I look at it, why not make those six months count and perhaps by the end of those classes, I will decide I can do this without surgery. So this is my mindset right now.
I really don't want surgery. I have held out against it for years. I don't want to give into it now. So if I have to change the way I eat, I have to change, plain and simple.
Not all has been lost the last couple of years, because food is becoming less of an addiction. I really am tired of all the fast food, and all the store bought food, even if it was not what I ate all the time. I have always been a great cook, and that was the problem. I liked to cook things that had butter, cream, and then end it with ice cream. These three things have always been my downfall. Well, and then there was fried chicken.
But of late, I am enjoying the more light tasting food. And tomato juice and lemon juice has become my friends. I have learned to use tomato juice instead of oil, and the lemon just just adds a zing.
So here I am, off on a new journey. I have learned in life that there are other things that I have had to give up completely, never to experience again. So it is time that I do it with food. I just need to let it go, and eat what is right for me.
That is my plan. Stay tuned...