Tuesday, July 09, 2013
I tried for two days to call my doctor. Tonight I finally did it, and I'm seeing her tomorrow. I've been having dizzy spells and night cramps in my right hand, and I'm scared. Maybe I'm being silly, but everyone I know who's had ALS had it start in the hands. I'm oddly praying it's ONLY carpal tunnel.
I have a difficult confession to make. I talked in my last blog about saving my blood pressure medicine. I've been saving it because I've been wrestling with self-destructive thoughts. Meantime I'm not taking it for my blood pressure!
I am scared. Right now I don't know if I can see a future. I'm in a black hole. I badly need to hug someone but there isn't anybody here.