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I canít see it, but I can feel it

Tuesday, July 09, 2013

Iíve finally built up some momentum and Iím starting to get results.

Iím still doing Kaia FIT, a womenís-only bootcamp-type program. We recently did a 6-week Brik, which is basically a more intensive session than the 5-week sessions we normally do. While I didnít commit fully to the diet portion of the program, I made it to every workout (5 days a week) during Brik. I wake up at 4 am to be in Carlsbad by 5 am, and there is a huge difference between doing that 3 days a week and 5 days! I was one tired girl by the end of the week. But I felt so much better overall!

While I have lost about 21 pounds since the beginning of the year and a few inches overall, thatís not what Iím happiest about. Itís about what Iíve gained so far. Iím a little stronger from the bodyweight workouts and Iíve started lifting weights in my garage. And these have given me the biggest confidence boost.

At the end of an outdoor Kaia workout last week, I was feeling pretty drained by the end of it. While the others ran to the other end of the parking lot, I walked back. It was all I had in me, I thought. Then the instructor had one last surprise: everyone had to hold a plank with their feet up on a retaining wall. Everyone was in place by the time I got there. The one good thing about a fast-paced workout is that it limits the time I have to think, I canít do this/My body doesnít work that way/etc. Those thoughts have always been automatic for me. But theyíre beginning to fade. I took a look at everyoneís feet to see how they placed them on the wall, and then I got myself into position. There was a whisper of, I canít do this, but there was a louder voice that said, How do you know? And that is becoming more common these days.

I have been taking progress photos of myself so I can see how I change. But I swear I donít see any difference yet! Maybe a little in my face, but only from one angle. I canít see the changes that are happening, but I can feel them.

Back in April, WOLFKITTY, my husband and I hiked up this giant hill near where we live. This past weekend, we hiked to Double Peak again. At the top is a beautiful old tree, and you can enjoy a 360-degree view of northern San Diego County. The first hike was a leg killer. We hadnít hiked in a while and some parts are pretty steep. It was challenging and I felt the effects for days afterward. This time, it was still challenging and I was sweating buckets, but I felt stronger on the way up. Some Kaia girls had reached the top long before we did, and they even ran past us on their way down while we were still hiking! That happens on every Kaia run, too. Iím always last! But that doesnít bother me as much anymore.

Kaia has a few mantras and one is, Find your hard. And I do. I know that my version of hard is another girl's warm-up, and thatís OK. As I progress, itíll be my warm-up one day, too.

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WOLFKITTY 7/17/2013 11:13PM


You are awesome!

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BEFIT_WITHGUSTO 7/17/2013 12:12PM

    Awesome job, Heather! Every time I see your check in at Kaia, I think about how dedicated you are! Congrats on the 21 pounds down and so many NSV's! I want to try Double Peak sometime soon.

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ABB698 7/16/2013 12:31AM

You are rocking it! So proud of you for your consistency and pushing yourself to 'find your hard'! You're awesome!!

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HIKINGSD 7/13/2013 3:43AM

    You are doing amazing girl!

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RUNNERRACHEL 7/9/2013 7:32PM

    Wow. You are so committed and are working hard. Love it. 4am wake up? That is incredible. That shows a lot of inner strength that you have as well as developing your outer strength. And sticking with the program that sounds really challenging. Very impressive. Amazing!

Great work. You're making progress and pushing forward. Keep up the great work! emoticon emoticon

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GIANTMICROBE 7/9/2013 2:45PM

    4AM... good lord. I don't know how you do it! I consider myself a morning person but dang. There's just no way!

My CrossFit has started posting a "bonus" endurance WOD several days a week for people training for marathons and half marathons in the fall. I, of course, am not training for a half or full marathon, but I think I could really use the endurance training anyway. However, with a 90 minute commute, I really do not have a lot of time and the endurance WOD is supposed to be at least 3 hours separate from your CrossFit WOD. So most people do their endurance WOD in the morning and their CrossFit WOD at night or vice versa. I'm trying to figure out a way I can do it, but I'm coming up kind of short... on time...

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PATJOONWW 7/9/2013 2:45PM

    Congrats on your success so far. I did a boot camp and I was always the last never hurt my feelings eighter. Although I was the oldest.

Keep up the good work and much success on your journey!

emoticon ~Pat~ emoticon

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CANDIK48 7/9/2013 1:42PM

    Good for you for sticking to it! Isn't it amazing to discover when we think we're tapped out, we reach deeper and find a little more to get us through? Pretty soon, you'll be running circles in the parking lot instead of walking.. I have faith! emoticon emoticon

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