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my body hates me...

Tuesday, July 09, 2013

It sounds funny but it feels so true today. My body isn't the only thing I've let go over the days, weeks, months, and years, so I have lots of things to do to get my life together. Today I started with house cleaning and clutter. My ass started aching and screaming at me just for putting dishes in the washer. She's so used to just spreading herself out on my couch that she didn't know what to do with herself.

Continuing on, it was time to tackle my car windows and drag garbage around the block to the dumpsters. Just moving cardboard boxes from my patio to my car had the small of my back feeling like it was going to implode. Looks like I'm just another Philly building waiting to crumble to the ground.

But, this is what beginnings are made of.. the tough hurtles, the aches from everyday activities, and the wondering of "how'd this happen?" The answer to that question is obvious, of course. It's hard to accept that I did this. I sat around. I stopped doing things that kept me nearly fit. I ate instead of voicing my anger, hurt, frustration, and boredom.
I also get to undo all I did and do all I didn't do before.

Maybe soon my body will not solely hate me and we can work out a new beginning for our relationship. We'll have a few conversations while I'm doing different things. The louder she speaks will tell me how patient I need to be with her. Slow and gentile going will start us off but hopefully we'll hit our stride before the snows try to lock us in or force us to go to battle against it with a stronger core and a shovel.

Time to finish up and contribute to the cardboard recycling pile.
We're off...
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  • MARYBETH4884
    It's true, start doing a little and as time and weight goes by you have more energy and strength to do more! Pretty soon your muscles will be aching to move! Small changes over time can make a big difference in the long run.
    1715 days ago
  • PATTI7177
    Miss Stonecot is amazing isn't she? When I start exercising I think of the discomfort as proof that I did something good for myself, that I worked hard enough for it to mean something. The trick is to keep moving every day. I figure if it is a very busy day and I don't get to do a longer workout, I can at least click on one of the videos on here and get 10 minutes or so, it's better than nothing. I think we all agree that the key to success in consistency. Once the consistency is there, then the length of time or level of rigor can be changed with time. emoticon
    1715 days ago
    Miss Stonecot, you're my new hero! What you've done for yourself is so amazing!
    Thank you for your support. I'm hoping next year I'll be as liberated from my past habits as you are.
    1715 days ago
    Bodies generally like to maintain the status quo, and they will tell you, and complain bitterly, every time you try to change things, like getting them to move! I can only tell you my experience, which was to find something that you really enjoy doing, so that the whinges, aches and pains mean less. Things can only get better, and you're right, the more you do the better you'll feel, both physically and about yourself. I've gone from sedentary, to elderly exercise freak in about a year. I hated any form of exercise. Now I know that this was my bodies way of trying to make me stop. Now it's stopped trying, it enjoys itself.
    1715 days ago
    Keep it up! I'm rooting for you.
    1715 days ago
    too true... thanks!
    1715 days ago
    Slow and steady wins the race... Even the smallest changes help. emoticon emoticon
    1715 days ago
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