What I have gained by losing...
Tuesday, July 09, 2013
Today is my 6th month anniversary. In January, I decided I didn't like myself, or the lifestyle I was living. I felt horrible mentally, physically and emotionally. My husband and I had stopped communicating, and if we accidentally touched, we both immediately apologized. I was sneaking and smoking again (I had smoked for 30 years, then quit for three years). I was setting a bad example for my grandson that I am raising, and feeding my family fast food 4 or 5 nights a week. I couldn't climb stairs without pulling myself up on the handrail, one stair at a time. I couldn't tie my shoes without difficulty, or even cross my legs. I stopped fixing my hair, or having my nails done (what was the use). I was on blood pressure medication, and Metformin for pre- diabetes. I couldn't walk a half mile without giving out. I was by no means being a good steward of this body the Lord gave me!
My doctor had told me about Sparkpeople a couple of years ago, and I signed up, but never followed through. At the New Year, I was thinking about resolutions, and how I wanted to be around to finish raising my 13 year old grandson. I wanted my marriage and my health to be good again. I wanted to wear a dress to church and be able to cross my legs!
I had yo-yo dieted on and off my whole life, and I realized I had to stop dieting, and CHANGE MY LIFESTYLE PERMANENTLY!
i STOPPED SMOKING THAT DAY! I joined Spark People, and started tracking my fitness, nutrition and weight. I stopped buying fast food and started cooking at home. I cut out MOST processed foods, and started eating more whole grains. I stopped buying junk. I bought a food scale, and started practising portion control. I started drinking a gallon of water a day. I started walking in my nei9ghborhood, and eventually, borrowed my daughters recumbent bike. Not all of these changes happened overnight, but I tried to add a new, healthy habit at least every two weeks.
The weight started to fall off. My energy level started to rise. As I started to feel better, I became even more determined. I had a couple of "cheat days", but even the cheat days were not that bad. From reading articles and blogs on SP, I learned that I didn't have to deprive myself of anything, but that moderation was the key.
I hit a plateau in April, and swapped the same four pounds around that whole month (one bad habit I can't give up is weighing every couple of days). I didn't give up! I joined the YMCA, and changed my exercise up, and the weight started to go again.
So, today, on my 6th month anniversary, what have I lost? 91 pounds and 50 some odd inches, and 10 dress sizes! I am no longer on any medication!
What have I gained? More energy. Better health. Better sleep. Self esteem. Re-newed respect from my family, friends and colleagues. A better marriage. A better relationship with my children and grandchildren. The feeling of being "feminine" again. Being able to find cute clothes. I have gained liking myself back!
Was it hard? YES! Do I still have a long way to go? YES! Was it worth it? YES, YES, A THOUSAND TIMES, YES! The best advice I got from anyone came from a "Sparkie". DON'T EVER, EVER, EVER GIVE UP! Even if you fall down, get right back up! One bad day will not undo all your progress. The YMCA gave me a tee shirt with a saying that I love: "You don't have to be fit to start, but you have to start to be fit"!