Tuesday, July 09, 2013
I don't know what its gonna take. I started eating better, I cut out sodas and teas, ai have exercised, I just don't see it making a difference. It is really discouraging to work so hard and not see results. I read about the fat burning zone, then I hear its a myth, I hear about fasting, then hear it puts your body in starvation mode and slows your metabolism, I don't know which way to go. There is so much information, and I want to join the Y, so I will have access to ask trainers who have had results and know what they are doing. I don't expect overnight results ...but I would like to see more then 2 pounds in a month, my measurements haven't shown much progress either. I feel this knot in my chest...like I'm gonna work and work and always be this fat blob...and look in the mirror and see dissapointment and failure. I hate being a size 22/24, I hate that I feel unattractive, and most of all I hate looking at pictures of myself. I have made a real effort the past month, and I want to keep going, but I want a guaranteed way that will give me results. I DON'T EAT OVER 1500 CALORIES, I WORK OUT AT LEAST AN HOUR EVERY DAY. WHY DOES MY BODY HATE ME.
sorry for the vent...but its gotta come out.