Tuesday, July 09, 2013
I have gone through the past journals and I saw excuse after excuse of why I wasn't doing things right. Then I would try a new program or become so restrictive and fail again. I would get on track praise God and then fall off track and get so depressed and eat out of my emotions. I would eat to celebrate eat to ease my sadness. My DH has been working out of town for many months. I feel lonely at night. I would usually eat out of boredom too. Last night I had a small piece of dark chocolate with some peanut butter. Then I decided to paint my toe nails and do a facial. This gave me a project to do to keep my mind off food. I cross stitch and I have that here for me to work on too. I texted my walking buddy and said ok I am ready to get back to walking because I have gained weight instead of loosing weight. I read a great book "You are not what you weight" I love that book. It helps keep things in perspective. I am taking one day at a time. I am taking one meal at a time. It is all the choices I have to make. No one is going to do it for me. There is no magic pill and no quick fix formula it is just doing what needs to be done that is all.