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Why being 'normal' is so unique

Tuesday, July 09, 2013

Yesterday I posted my blog about the joy of being normal. This is a new concept for me when it comes to food and exercise because I have teetered on the edge of disordered eating/exercise many times. I have plunged into clean eating and the like several times. I have drooled over Shakeology. I have forced myself into many different molds trying to obtain that status of virtuosity. I mean really let's face it, dieting is virtuous, right? I know in the past it felt like a socially acceptable thing to say, "no thanks, I can't eat that it has too many calories... or isn't clean... or has too many carbs... or ____________." It is like that right of passage for a women to be in that fold. It is unladylike to stuff a greasy burger in her face and down a soda after and God forbid, enjoy some french fries.

No, it is more socially acceptable for a woman to daintily eat her salad and unsweetened iced tea or lemon water.

I am done with the socially acceptable, lady like behavior. I refuse to force myself into that position again. Ever. Fact of the matter is this: I need calories. I need food. I need fuel for my body so I can sustain it on a daily basis and fuel the hell out of my workouts. Yes, I lose slower than others, but facing facts, I would much rather lose at a snail's pace and know that the weight will stay off instead of losing a lot in a short amount of time only to see it come back on.

This whole mindset of feeling normal when it comes to food and exercise is quite thrilling, I will admit. I feel like I can normally eat. I am not obsessing about clean eating, I am not obsessing about intuitive eating (because, yes I have done that, too). I am just plain not obsessing. I love the fact that on a normal basis I pick healthy foods to eat. But I am also loving the fact that I am eating without the guilt associated with it.

This last week I enjoyed myself. My husband was off and facing facts, there is more food temptations around. We went out to eat twice, we barbequed on the 4th, I drank a Sam Adam's when playing The Walking Dead, I exercised like hell and I had ZERO guilt about any of my food choices. I tracked what I ate and moved on.

It is highly liberating to KNOW that I don't have to be tied down by my eating lifestyle that there is a true moderation point out there for me, too. I am to the point that I am really enjoying it, not resenting it.

I am very focused, probably the most focused I have been in a very long time and I contribute a lot of that to the BLC (which has been amazing in every sense of the word). I feel good like my goals are truly within reach. I am not sure what this week's weigh in will bring. If it is a gain, I will chalk it up to just a bump in the road because really there is no set destination. Having been at my goal weight before, I know there is no just getting off at the station and being done. It really is a lifelong path. I hope to reach my goal that I set for myself for the BLC which would put me at a 5% loss and about 7 pounds away from my goal. I am focused on doing it and reaching it, but doing it int he right way. Not through deprivation.

I guess the reality of it all is this: I am working to beccome my OWN 'after' picture. I am not sure what that means. Facing facts, I don't know if I will ever have that so sought after six pack or thigh gap or whatever seems to be the thing to obtain now. I am just working to be the best version of myself I can be. I won't be perfect. It won't be like the images we all see posted all over spark or Facebook or Pinterest of 'fitspiration' but damn, if I can feel good about my size and fitness ability and being able to eat normally without feeling bound by it, I will consider that my biggest accomplishment!

Member Comments About This Blog Post:
JENSHAINES 7/14/2013 8:27PM

    LOVE this!!! It seems like everything you were looking at this spring is coming together for you now in the way it works for YOU!!! JUST exactly as it should be. And yes, the BLC IS amazing! And so are you!!!

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GUNNSGIRL91303 7/12/2013 5:48PM

    Always we can count on words of wisdom from you Amber!

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JUNEBUG0511 7/12/2013 1:00PM

    Gosh, wonderful blog! I think you have reached a level of transcendence that I can only aspire to! emoticon

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LJR4HEALTH 7/10/2013 6:24PM

    emoticon post Thanks for sharing our thoughts & experience

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SIMONEKP 7/10/2013 12:16PM


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    I think you are in a great place mentally. I think this makes sense and I can see why it would give you a sense of freedom & relaxation! Yes, you work-out hard and you should fuel yourself. I wish we could all accept the fact that we are different and unique and quit trying to model ourselves after these body types that someone puts in front of us in the mass media.

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DESTINYE 7/9/2013 10:25PM

    I think you are right, I have struggled with my weight and been obsessed, broken the scales, but now I feel stronger and more in balance - and some days - normal!

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JUSTME29 7/9/2013 5:07PM

    I think this is what it's all about. Being at a point where "normal" is healthy.

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AWOLF24 7/9/2013 4:51PM

    Yea!!! I too struggle to get to the point where I'm not over-obsessing about food. Sounds like you are doing a great job!

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SINGER73 7/9/2013 2:43PM

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MRSP90X 7/9/2013 1:59PM

    Great blog! I know what you mean. I went on vacation last week and ate lots of goodies and loved every minute of it and did not feel the least bit guilty! I do try to stick to a "diet" that I can do, but mainly for diabetes control, and not because I think it is the "right way" to eat. I did enjoy a triple burger on the 4th! Yup, I am working on being the best me that I can be too! Again, excellent blog, and I cheer you on! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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FLGIRL_4EVER 7/9/2013 1:52PM

  emoticon emoticon emoticon IT!!!!

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GUDDIGO 7/9/2013 9:29AM

  Here's to you...Normal you...

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