Tuesday, July 09, 2013
This is copied from my old profile, wrote on May 28, 2012
I have always had weight issues but about 7 years ago I started to swell up and later learned I had Lymphedema. Basically my lymphatic system no longer works correctly and I swell up, I assume 300 pounds is fluid and extra skin, maybe more. This condition has no cure, so it will be a life long battle. Eventually I learned that not only do I have Lymphedema but I was born with a condition called Lipedema, which also causes swelling but in a different way, the fat cells malfunction and retain fluid which can not be reversed by diet or medication. Like Lymphedema there is no cure and most treatments fail, also many who have Lipedema end up always being seen as just fat and lazy and end up having Lymphedema later on due to the added weight and strain on the body. Lipedema has a few for sure signs, the biggest one is the hip area tends to be larger than normal, for a female it is more noticeable and it usually starts around puberty. From around 10 I started to notice my hips were larger and i was over all overweight so it wasnt something that anyone thought was anything more than just fat. Another sign is over all swelling of the legs, but tends to stop at the feet with a "ring" around the top of the foot being really swollen but not going any further, basically the swelling over laps the tops of the feet but the feet themselves dont swell.
To make weight loss even harder, i have other medical issues, i have Poly Cystic Ovarian Syndrome, under active thyroid, insulin resistance, and a mental illness ( Borderline Personality Disorder) not to mention most of my family has had weight issues, with most of my family having diabetes, and other health issues.
So as you can see, i have a long hard road ahead of me... what makes it worse is I do NOT have a support system, all of my "friends" and I have drifted apart, I dont drink, dont smoke, dont do drugs and i just dont fit in... not to mention the fact that my health i cant go out and do things so I am alone all the time, I dont have a special someone in my life and its hard to find one with my over all size/weight and health issues. I have a few good online friends but as much as I love having them in my life, i am the type of person that needs true physical in person connections, and i just have never had someone who can be my friend but yet push me positively without enabling me, due to my mental health people dont know how to deal with my mood swings so they do what ever they think will make me happy at that moment which is not actually helping me at all. I need someone who is strong, someone that can and will say NO but yet be nice and caring when they say it, someone who can help hold me accountable for my food intake and physical activity, speaking of physical activity i also need someone who i can work out with but understand i have limitations due to my over all size and weight, most of that right now being from the swelling.
I cant go out much not only due to the fear of breaking things or not fitting into chairs but i cant walk or stand for a long time, and it is very hard for me to get in and out of most vehicles due to my swelling. Not many people want to stay in and to many that is boring.
I do not have family other than my dad, which we dont always get along, he will not admit it but i have always believed there is mental illness within him so we clash all the time.
If you have any questions feel free to ask, i am a very open and honest person. Thanks for looking at my page here.