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Tuesday, July 09, 2013

Independence Day has come and gone. While I have been focusing so much on numbers. The numbers in versus the number out for 4 days it just didn't happen. In the past I would be all freaked out. I fell off track....I screwed up...I might have even given up.....

But I am no longer dependent on food to make me happy when sad, stressed or any other food dependency. It is no longer a reward or a punishment. It is there to sustain life and enjoy, in moderation.......Yes the numbers in matter, so do the numbers out.....But 4 days of enjoying time with my husband was well worth the slight sides step and delay of hitting my goal. We barely have any quality of time together as one of us is always getting ready for bed as other is getting home and the sad part is it switches from one to the other, which pretty much means we are both not getting enough sleep because one is always waking the other as they go to bed or wake up. So we slept in and it felt good. We hung out visited family, and just enjoyed doing nothing...

This weekend while I didn't focus on the numbers, I ate when hungry and stopped when full even when I had the most delicious dinner in front of me. I knew that I was full and that I would be able to enjoy it some other time...there was no need to make myself hurt because I was so full I couldn't move. I enjoyed our night out.

I lived 4 days like someday I will Independent of the counting. For now, this is a sometime thing, but it's a good sometime thing to try. Monday came early today and I was outside on my morning walk because I wanted to....I'm in this journey for the long haul, healthy living is about being Independent of the obsession. It will take little steps to get there, but I know I'm working towards the balance of life.

Independence is such a strong word, but to many of us are dependent on food it makes us happy until we look in the mirror and realize what that bag of oreos look like on our hips.

Everyone must do what they need to do to get to their healthy ideal, but someday I wish you all including me Independence

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    Love your connections! Mindful and purposeful is a great combination! emoticon Hope you don't mind I added you as a friend.
    1688 days ago
    It's a learning process. I don't think it's normal to live your entire life counting. Once you get into the swing of it (over a period of time), you won't have to count anymore. You'll take the queues from your body (or at least that's what I hope). emoticon
    1688 days ago
    Good work,
    1688 days ago
  • CHERYLA2012
    Hurray for living living and mindfully eating! You will get there!
    1688 days ago
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