Monday, July 08, 2013
I have been floundering, acting and living as if I do not care that I am nearly 70 pounds overweight. Motivation seems ephemeral and not nearly strong enough to keep me thinking positively, moving forward and making progress.
I DO want to lose this weight! I DO! I DO! I DO!
The problem is, I have not resolved my lifelong attitudes about exercise (I hate it. It equals pain and brings up that sense of failure.) I have not adequately dealt with my emotional baggage around food, though I have made progress.
Several of my Sparkfriends have blogged about how they've ignored the scale (hey, I can do that, too!). They have also focused on NSVs and changes in their lifestyles.
I am going to adopt that in very small, hopefully achievable, and personal ways.
Start building consistency:
KBs at the lowest weight for 5 minutes tomorrow
Walk for five minutes the day after
and so on
(I will increase each element as time goes on)
7 days of consistency = 30 minutes of recreational reading
Eat Paleo two meals a day(eventually all 3)
Think about the food choice that's not Paleo for two minutes before I move forward with that choice
Ask myself why I want that and if there might be a better choice at hand
Take a moment to think about how I am feeling and what my circumstances are.
7 days of consistency = something to do that's free and fun (TBD)
Later, I'll add clothes and earrings, pins and other stuff I will want and need.
I also give myself permission to tweak this without also saying anything negative to me that passes judgment and perpetuates that ugly cycle.