Monday, July 08, 2013
I'm posting this one a couple days late... better than never, right?
It's been an up and down week: Tues I recognized I was in destructive thought pattern and changed the moment to a safer, healthier, positive one, Wed was beyond super fun, Thurs I was sick in bed with allergies, Fri I stayed up and watched the last two seasons of Entourage (wow did Turtle lose weight and was looking mighty fine!), and Sat I had the best time out I've had in a long time.
See, there's this local 80s band, Holy Spicoli, that I love to go watch perform. Mom was DD and my friend was meeting us there to enjoy the night. She and I have only been out once before and that was back in November; she's usually busy with her daughter, school, health issues, etc... As mom and I were ordering food she texted some negative news and I started to get really angry and frustrated (not at her but at the guy that was supposed to drop her off so she didn't have to worry about driving or parking). It took longer than desirable but eventually he came to his senses and dropped her off. It took a little bit of conscious effort but I made myself calm down and relax so we could have a good night.
Let the party commence! We had yummy food and then super yummy drinks (I shall spare the details on quantity) and we danced, danced, danced!!! did I mention dance? It was an absolute thrill of a night. I was in my element for sure what with all the dancing, drinking, singing, socializing, catching up with people, making sure everyone is OK, making new friends, etc.
Oh, and I almost failed to mention all the compliments I've been getting and got about how GOOD I looked!! teehehehehhee OMG that feels AMAZING. People have always thought I looked young but now they're are downright astonished when I say I'm 37. Especially since it's a college town in which we were partying.
As I was getting ready I picked out this cowl neck blouse I've only worn once, for my birthday in 2010. And I had to tell myself I weigh less now than when I bought it, I look better than that time I wore it, no one is looking at my belly, and I can do this!!
I often don't look in the mirror b/c a number of years ago when I started gaining I just decided to stop looking at myself. Well now that I'm skinnier and healthier than I have been in years I still don't look in mirrors and I don't see myself as a thin person again (yet).
It's a fun problem to have that none of my dressier pants fit me anymore, LOL. My only regret from that night is that I forgot to have mom take a picture to show how great I looked.
And... it's a LOT easier to recover from a night of debauchery and friendships when you're healthy than when I was overly obese.