Monday, July 08, 2013
It has been just over a year since my last blog post. In that time things have gone seriously downhill for me.
For those that followed my blog posts in the past, I am just going to warn you that the "SparkPeople Motivator" that you nominated in the past is gone. I couldn't motivate a starving mosquito to suck my blood right now.
I have gained back most, if not all, of the weight I lost. I have lost something though, my positive attitude towards changing my life. I no longer see a light at the end of the tunnel and I am only doing this so that I won't become more of a burden on the people who love me.
I HAVE to live even though I don't want to; therefore I am going to try to do this again.
I am so bloody tired of the constant battle I have to fight just to live in this world. Unfortunately, and yes I'm aware that most of you will say that it is FORTUNATE, I have people in my life that love me and need me to stay here for THEM.
So, here I go again for the umpteenth time. I have to do this because there are people who need me.
BTW....I DO know that I am depressed. I have been dealing with my depression since I was a child.