How do I get off this crazy thing?
Monday, July 08, 2013
I've had so many changes in the past year yet so many things have remained the same. We added a new baby to our family this past April. I turned 41 about two weeks later. And I'm still struggling with my weight issues.
My highest weight the day I went into the hospital to have my baby boy was 340 lbs. When I stepped on the scale at the OB's office that morning I was completely and utterly mortified, not that the nurse saw what I weighed but that I weighed that much. I never in my life thought that I'd ever see a number like that on the scale. I know that most of it was water weight because by the time that my son was a month old I'd lost 42 pounds bringing me 2 pounds below where I'd started. But it's such a struggle. My body just doesn't feel right. I'm in near constant pain. My feet and knees kill me. I'm tired all of the time. I just don't feel like myself.
I'm ready to start back on the journey to me now. I owe it to myself. I owe it to my kids. I want to be healthy, not skinny. I want to be able to play with my kids and keep up with them. I want to look in the mirror and see the hot mama that I know I used to be and that my husband still claims to see.
Today I'll start my journey again.