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How do I get off this crazy thing?

Monday, July 08, 2013

I've had so many changes in the past year yet so many things have remained the same. We added a new baby to our family this past April. I turned 41 about two weeks later. And I'm still struggling with my weight issues.

My highest weight the day I went into the hospital to have my baby boy was 340 lbs. When I stepped on the scale at the OB's office that morning I was completely and utterly mortified, not that the nurse saw what I weighed but that I weighed that much. I never in my life thought that I'd ever see a number like that on the scale. I know that most of it was water weight because by the time that my son was a month old I'd lost 42 pounds bringing me 2 pounds below where I'd started. But it's such a struggle. My body just doesn't feel right. I'm in near constant pain. My feet and knees kill me. I'm tired all of the time. I just don't feel like myself.

I'm ready to start back on the journey to me now. I owe it to myself. I owe it to my kids. I want to be healthy, not skinny. I want to be able to play with my kids and keep up with them. I want to look in the mirror and see the hot mama that I know I used to be and that my husband still claims to see.

Today I'll start my journey again.
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  • v FITGIRL15
    Small steps forward add up! YOU CAN do this!!! You are stronger then you think!!!
    We are here for support!
    1111 days ago
  • v ROBINJOY61
    You Can Do It! Believe in Yourself, be kind and patient with yourself, as you would with a dear friend. As a 51 year old, 260 pound woman who just completed her first 5K, ( more walking than running) I'm sure you are capable of much more than you believe! Even two months ago I wouldn't have expected or believed I would do a 5K! Every little victory you have will breed more victories. Soon you will feel unstoppable!
    At my highest this past winter I was 293, so I am familiar with the achy joints, tiredness, and frustrations of normal day to day activities.
    But I took a small group class at the Y , a trainer with just three students, and he showed me just how much more I was capable of. More than that he Believed in me, even when I didn't . Now I'm beginning to believe I can do Anything I put my mind to!
    You Go For It Girl! You Got This! You Can Do It! emoticon emoticon emoticon
    1112 days ago
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