Monday, July 08, 2013
I'm ready to get off this roller coaster. After two weeks of not being able to jog, I have found that it is the glue that holds together my lifestyle. How does someone gain 8 lbs in two weeks? Not being able to run made me lose all motivation. I've done better today and I'm okay to go run tonight, but I'm just thinking, what is going to happen next that leads to a nice round of self sabotage? I was down to 169 and now I'm back up to 177. I'm trying hard not to beat myself up about it and get emotional, because then I want to binge eat. I keep walking into the kitchen, opening the fridge, closing it and walking back out. When is everything just going to stick? When am I going to be able to make a lifestyle change for more than a couple weeks? Why can't I be one of those people who LOSES their appetite when stressed?
Come on, Bridge. Think positive. You've already come so far from the 275 lbs you were.