Monday, July 08, 2013
I stepped on the scale today for the first time in a while and realized that I am near my all-time high from about 5 years ago--today was 223. I had no idea it had gotten that bad--I guess I had thought my clothes had all shrunk? Anyway, it was 10-15 lbs more than I expected so I am kind of down in the dumps now.
The last few months have been filled with a lot of loss and pain. I was betrayed by a good friend and consequently lost my apartment, my dog died and, the worst of all, I lost a dear friend to suicide. By the time I moved out of my home, I decided it would be better to get rid of nearly everything I owned than to move or store it. It was a good choice, but a drastic one.
I clearly have been emotionally compensating by eating and I need to address that right away, right now. So I joined SP again and I am re-committing. In the past, Atkins has helped so I am doing that.
Today I'll have my coffee + half and half for breakfast, plus eggs and bacon. For lunch I'll eat some chicken breast and salad and then probably something similar for dinner. And lots of water! Water water water.
In the meantime I've also gotten behind on work and need to deal with a lot of emails in the back log. Hard to take everything one step at a time when everything seems urgent. What a mess.
Ok I'll check in later today.