Monday, July 08, 2013
Since I am recommitting myself after my first year, and since I went a little nuts in the past few days and ate my weight in fattening foods, I am gonna put it all out there.
I spent a week eating salads for dinner and a protein shake and yogurt or Fiber One 90-calorie bars during the day and for snacks at night and I was hitting the Fiber One bars and still continually gaining weight. So I went a little nuts the past 3 days and ate an entire round cake (I box of mix) with lemon frosting, ordered pizza for dinner with the chocolate lava cakes... the they are gone.
I just weighed in at 244.2. This is a 16 pound gain since the end of May. I am NOT impressed and neither should anyone else be. I am very disappointed, so I know that I can't do this on my own with just "eyeballing" what I am eating throughout the day. Back to strict tracking and moving as much as I can. It's just sooooo hot! The heat index is killing me, but I can't use that as an excuse anymore. I have to get outside and SWEAT to get this fat back off. Even that 16 pounds has made me feel like a total slug and it's eating at my brain and my emotions, plus I FEEL the 16 EXTRA pounds I am dragging around.
I went grocery shopping the day before yesterday ONLY because I was completely out of dog food. So I stocked up on apples, bananas, lettuce, grapes, and YOGURT. Yogurt will have to be my sweet snack from now on instead of cake. I already had the cake mix, so I also bought lemon frosting, which I ate that night and yesterday. (I still have over half the container of lemon frosting, though!)
So the house is clean of tempting foods. And I think I can control myself to stay out of the marshmallows that I KNOW are here for the bonfire. :-)
Wish me luck. That means I now have 56 pounds to lose instead of the 40 I did have to get to where I wanted to be. It's a depressing thought and I have let it bring me down further and further every day. Thus, the stupid eating and lack of self-control. So here's to starting over again.
Fat Hugs from a Fat Chick, (but aren't fat lady hugs the best???)