Sunday, July 07, 2013
Today is Day 2 of my overall health improvement, I signed up for SparkBudget (Is that what it's called? I don't know.) And Spark Coach, I got all my laundry done, and cleaned my room, and sadly it hasn't been this clean in months. Really disappointed that I let myself go that bad, that I didn't care about any of my belongings including my body. The important thing is I'm back on track and know where I want to go. Soon my mom will be working again and things will be better, and I know your shaking you head thinking, "23 year old girl living with her mom?" Yes, Yes I am. It's a four bedroom house, I will not go to living a life of squalor just so I can live by myself. Besides I want to go back to school, taking phone calls is easy, but very frustrating some people are so mean, we must pray/chant/meditate for them in the hopes they will soon find happiness. By the end of this year, I want to have my debts paid off, and start working towards paying my car off by the end of next year. Getting rid of that debt will allow me to quit working get a loan and just got to school, of course I want to save up as much as I can, because I don't want to get out of school and be in horrible debt like my mom. I bought some yarn, and crochet needles and knitting pins, I will make a blanket for winter I think, I want to take classes for dress design. I want to be a completely self sufficient person who will soon be the best mom ever. I want to teach my kids the importance of not giving up, the opposite of what was enforced in my house. I want to teach my children how to live and enjoy life and the planet and nature. Although we are in a somewhat technologically advanced society, I ant my children to be raised the way I was raised, and the way my grandmother was raised. I don't want distractions and the crazy society we live in to cause my children to loose focus, like my entire family has. I don't know what all that entails, but my children will the first in my family to go to an Ivy league school. Unless one of my cousins has a baby genius lurking already. Well, I don't want to overwhelm you so much, so goodnight, sleep tight, and eat right.