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The Journey (So Far)


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Sunday, July 07, 2013



On March 1, 2012, I embarked on the most AMAZING journey...the journey to steal back my life from the prison of obesity. I had reached the point where I was literally sick and tired of being sick and tired. I was sick of being trapped in an overweight, out of shape, unhealthy body. I was tired of being in pain, and tired of avoiding people for fear that they'd see how fat I'd gotten. I wasn't really living anymore. I was just existing from day to day.

It wasn't always like that. In 2005/2006, I lost 86 lbs and reached a size 10, which was my goal. But while losing the weight was difficult, maintenance turned out to be even harder! I struggled through maintenance for a year before throwing in the towel and gaining all the weight back..and more! I confess...I lost 86 pounds and gained back 100.

No wonder I didn't want to go out in public and risk running into people who knew me from when I'd lost the weight! My weight loss success had been written about in a local (free) women's magazine. I'd been the top loser on my gyms "Losers Wall." People had come to me for weight loss advice and motivation. And now here I was, heavier than when I started! How on Earth could I ever redeem myself, or rescue myself from the prison I'd put myself back into?

It really seemed like an insurmountable task, to lose 86 pounds AGAIN, plus 14 more! I was overwhelmed at just the thought of it. But on March 1, 2012, I finally found the courage to try again. I knew that I had to forget the weight, though. This time, my focus would be on getting healthy, as opposed to losing weight. So I got a starting weigh in, and then I got rid of the scale.






Iti wasn't easy. I started out by getting rid of all the junk food in the house. Part of me felt guilty for throwing that food away, but I figured it was better to WASTE it (by trashing it) than it was to WAIST it (by eating it.) I stocked up on healthy food and planned out a weeks worth of meals in my food journal.



And then I started working out. My first workouts were with a video game for Wii, called My Fitness Coach. At first, I couldn't get through a 15 minute workout...I'd have to pause the game and rest every five minutes! But I stuck with it, and I gave myself time to get better. Eventually, my time increased, and then I added new workouts. I started doing DDP Yoga and Walk Away the Pounds. When I got bored with Walk Away the Pounds, I started doing Cardio Kickboxing. When I weighed myself again in September (2012), I was amazed and thrilled to see that I'd lost 71 lbs!



I hit a plateau after that. The holidays were a struggle for me, and there were quite a few times when I went off plan and gave in to too much unhealthy food. But I never thought about just giving up. I told myself that every day was a fresh start. Some days were better than others. I was still working out hard, but I wasn't being as careful as I should be with my eating. I wasn't gaining. I was eating just enough to maintain.



I was proud of how far I'd come, but I knew deep down that I needed to keep pushing and go even further. After all, my goal this time is not to reach a size 10. This time, I want to get to a size 8, and I knew I'd never get there unless I got that eating under control!



This month, I have renewed my commitment to myself. I am determined to make July the HEALTHIEST month of the year so far! I have become extremely vigilant about eating healthy, real food...measuring my portions...and tracking, tracking, tracking. I'm also doing a new, more challenging workout; the Jillian Michaels 30 Day Shred! Wow, that workout is a butt kicker! It definitely is a tough workout, and I'm so proud of myself for sticking with it. Today was day 7 of level one!

And now, it seems like the plateau is ending! I haven't weighed myself (and don't intend to anytime soon) but I can tell that I've lost weight. Just a few pounds, but hubby has noticed, and I can feel it. Plus, the most awesome NSV happened yesterday. I got dressed and my jeans were loose around the waist! I felt like jumping for joy! (And I would have, but jumps are high impact and I never do high impact moves, lol.) Those jeans were so loose, I was able to take them off without unbuttoning them...they just slid right down my hips when I pulled them! It feels awesome to be seeing and feeling progress again!

This is my journey so far. But really, there is no end, because this is a journey for life!


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CATNCAG 6/27/2014 1:00PM

    Way to go Pixie! I hope u r still doing great of course we all have are ups & downs but we've got this! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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GWINNER1 8/3/2013 1:15AM

    What an inspiring story! Job well done!

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LINDERVEE 7/31/2013 10:58AM

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Thanks for your words of inspiration. :)

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LIGHTNINGDAWN 7/27/2013 9:57AM

    Thank you for sharing your story! I can absolutely relate, which is one of the great things about SparkPeople - connecting people with similar AND totally different stories than our own. I wish you much success on your continued journey! :D

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GINIEMIE 7/27/2013 8:21AM

    Wonderful story Pixie, thanks for sharing and inspiring. I have to get serious again. I don't want to go back to the before either.
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WOOFGANG 7/22/2013 9:35AM

    OMG, your story sounds so much like mine! I lost 83 pounds in just under a year and then in the same timeframe, gained 100 pounds. Except here I am now, 100 pounds heavier wondering if I can do this again. I'm trying, but it's very difficult. Thanks for sharing your story - you have motivated me and given me hope. Congrats to you and I wish you continued success in your quest for good health!

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REALLYRETIRED 7/15/2013 12:57AM

    OMG! (as my grand daughter would say) What a beautiful story you have. Thanks you so much for sharing it with all of us. You said so many important things and showed some great diagrams (the pat to winning was priceless) I am going to draw that and put it all over the place as a good reminder of what the heck this trip is all about.

I too have lost and gained back before and the last time I was using Spark People but, like you, that darned scale seemed to be my main focus. This time, it sits there and looks so sad when I walk right by it. I weighed myself at the beginning and I don't plan on using it again for a long time.

I would love to" hang out" with you on the SP chat line so I am "friending" you and sending you a goodie. Have a great week and keep up the good work. And,,,,, thank you again for sharing your story. It is very inspiring. emoticon

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FLUTTER-BY)L( 7/13/2013 10:31PM

    Congratulations. Love your picture of failure.

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MAD_WRITER_TAL 7/11/2013 10:44AM

    you and me both, girl. keep that enthusiasm going strong--I so needed that.

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JIBBIE49 7/10/2013 10:28PM

    emoticon You're the STAR in the Spark Mail. What an honor. emoticon

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KARENLEIGH32 7/10/2013 8:15PM

    So glad you called it a life style and not a diet! I just had this conversation with my SIL the other day she keeps referring to it as a diet! I said not a diet and she is whatever...

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KMRJPR 7/10/2013 3:15PM

    Pixie...you never stop inspiring me, amazing me and motivating me. Thank you so much for your wonderful blog. The honesty of it all really speaks to me and I relate on so many levels.

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BUFFYSMOM2 7/10/2013 3:15PM

    You are kickin' Spark butt!!! Way to go and emoticon .
Patti

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TEXASPCMAMA 7/10/2013 12:38AM

    Awesomeness!!! Thanks for a great post. I really enjoy the story and the images intertwined - makes an interesting read.

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KATTREE 7/10/2013 12:24AM

    Enjoyed reading, great job. emoticon

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AFERARI 7/9/2013 11:18PM

    Inspirational!

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LKS2GAB2 7/9/2013 10:14PM

    Very encouraging story. The visuals were spot on. Keep up the good/hard work. emoticon emoticon emoticon

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GA2NEGIRL 7/9/2013 10:10PM

  I'm SO IMPRESSED! Very encouraging!

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CLMESCHER 7/9/2013 8:51PM

    I really liked your motivational story AND the motivational pictures and slogans. Keep moving toward your goals. emoticon

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2014ISTHEYEAR 7/9/2013 7:59PM

    AWESOME blog!!! First off, congratulations to you for not giving up, for not hiding, and for getting back to making your dreams come true:-) You did it before, so you can do it again. And you learned so much from your last journey. You know what you have to do and what went wrong. That's what counts. Live and learn. And you're not a quitter:-) I had tears in my eyes when I was reading this blog, because I can relate to so much. I too had lost weight and was close to my goal weight back in 2009. Then I let life and my emotions get in the way and here I am 60 lbs over and weighing like 40lbs more than when I first started my journey:-( I too am embarrassed to run into anyone from my past. I've never been this heavy. Not a good feeling. Unlike you, I'm in hiding and even started a new SP page. This blog gives me hope. Hope that I can turn things around and feel good again. So glad I found such an inspiring SP friend!
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LENELLA 7/9/2013 7:23PM

    I'm so proud of you for forgetting your pride and really caring about your health. The first hurdle is always the hardest. The hurdle of our mind. Once we get past that, then we start seeing success after success. And the failures only serve to drive us harder.

Very inspiring hon!


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ENG_TV 7/9/2013 6:01PM

    great job! This is a reminder that with success often come some setbacks. Thanks!

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DSCROW 7/9/2013 5:30PM

    Congratulations you are STRONG, you are COMMITTED, you are PRESERVERING, you are GOING TO SUCCEED.

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TPETRIE 7/9/2013 4:53PM

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CHERIJ16 7/9/2013 2:56PM

    Awesome blog. I can totally relate. emoticon

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CLIMBERS_ROCK 7/9/2013 2:38PM

    emoticon great attitude

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KIMALEE54 7/9/2013 1:50PM

    Forthright, honest, and truly uplifting. I love, love, love this blog and am sending you a big hug--!

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JLR080500 7/9/2013 1:34PM

    Such an inspiration!!! Great job and I wish you continued success!

Janet

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NYCDREAMING 7/9/2013 12:51PM

    What an inspiration! Thank you so much for sharing! I'm new back to SP and in a similar situation to where you were a year ago! I needed this!

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RASIRE 7/9/2013 12:49PM

  Love it. Congrats!

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GOOD-ENOUGH-NOW 7/9/2013 12:45PM

  Congratulations on your success! emoticon

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MADAMES 7/9/2013 11:51AM

    Thank you for your inspiration. You are awesome!

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GETULLY 7/9/2013 11:43AM

    You go Girl!! emoticon Congratulations! What an awesome story-one I need to follow. But we all are a work in progress. Thanks for writing!

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SANDYJO61 7/9/2013 11:30AM

  You go girl. emoticon

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PARKERJEAN 7/9/2013 11:01AM

    Wow! I loved this blog! :-)

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ZHIOVAL 7/9/2013 10:58AM

    Awesome story!. I had lost 22 pounds and maintained it for about 3 years and then gained 30 back. I am no where near my goal but I am on my way. Thank you for your honest post and motivation! You are great! emoticon emoticon

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    emoticon emoticon for sharing! emoticon

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HFAYE81 7/9/2013 10:27AM

    Awesome girl!!! emoticon

I did Day 5 yesterday, and only had to rest for a few seconds during the first set of jump rope...I did all the rest, even the bicycle crunches at the end!!!! It IS getting easier, I am hoping it keeps getting easier and I can go to Level 2!! I haven't been doing it every day, but I haven't taken more than 1 day off between. I hope to do Day 6 tonight after work.

Keep up the inspirational blogging! It's easier to make this journey when there are friendly faces journeying with you emoticon

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KCARLSON117 7/9/2013 10:20AM

  You are an inspiration!! Thank you for sharing your story.

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FUNLOVEN 7/9/2013 9:59AM

    What a great re-cap of your journey. Keep up the good work emoticon

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GUDDIGO 7/9/2013 9:26AM

  Great motivation from you....

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KANOE10 7/9/2013 9:23AM

    Great inspirational story. I have done the same thing..lost 100 pounds and then regained it. You are on the right track. You are focused and exercising. You are eating healthfully!


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AMANDANCES 7/9/2013 9:15AM

    What a great post! And congratulations on the jeans!! What an amazing feeling :) You truly are an inspiration, and I'm so happy for you!!!

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CHRISTASP 7/9/2013 8:59AM

    Hmmm - I think it's time for more pics!

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WENDYANNE61 7/9/2013 8:07AM

    Love it, love it, love it!

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HUNTETOWN 7/9/2013 7:47AM

    Reading the first part of your story I thought "she's writing about me". What came next is very inspiring and I really hope for my story to continue in a very similar way.
Thanks for this great and honest post!
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LEANMEAN2 7/9/2013 6:58AM

    Congratulations and thanks for sharing.

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