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Inner Attitude

Sunday, July 07, 2013

Thanks to everyone for posting all of the nice comments. I was really happy to see what each of you had to say. It truly made my day.

(Just to note I have the worst writing skills EVER so bare with me. )

Waiting on God is hard sometimes. After reading the comments I realize that you are all right about waiting on God to select a mate for you. I am 29 years old ( I will be 30 next year yikes!!) and i've been married before. I got married when I was 22 and I thought that I would be married forever. To make a long story short he only married me so that he could get a green card. Though it was hurtful I've moved on. He was my first real bf . I honestly feel that I married him so that I would feel better about myself. Come to find out I didn't I just felt much worse.

Well, now i'm almost 30 and now my friends are either getting married, are married , and are starting to have children. I do feel left out most of the time because I want to get married also. It seems when your friends get married they join another social group of something. They feel you don't understand because you aren't married. It just sucks but I have to have faith that God has someone for me in the works.

I can honestly say that I don't have a good self image of myself. I'm learning that I can't depend on someone else to make me feel good about myself. I have to feel good about me first. Everyone was right when they said I should focus on myself first then after I feel good about myself then I can let someone truly love me but first I have to love myself. This is a slow process for me.

I have started taking photos. I don't own many photos of myself because I don't feel that I'm pretty enough to take the photo. I'm the type that don't have a lot of selfies. I always feel other people are much prettier than I am. I feel invisible sometimes.

Though I slightly feel better today I know I still have a long way to go but it's time that I looked in the mirror at my inner attitude. ..


I will be reading the spark people's first book tonight.
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PRAIRIECROCUS 7/9/2013 12:50AM

    Have a nice, safe summer !

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BABY_GIRL69 7/7/2013 3:22PM

    I would say that there are also groups for singles. I am in a life group at church & only 3 of us are married out of the 8 of us & our teacher is a widow. She lost her husband some time ago. We can both relate to the same thing as women BUT if you've never had kids then it is a little different. Don't let that deter you cause 1 out of our group had adopted 2 girls and she has never been married and is well into her 50s. She has come to terms that she may not married but God is not though yet. We all have to wait or we will end up with someone whose intentions are not clear. So continue to wait and while you wait, read scriptures on faith and waiting, pray, fast, (REPEAT!!!!) join a group of singles for Christ and be encouraged.

God bless & I declare what's coming is better than what's been!!!!

Dee

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STEVIEBEE569 7/7/2013 8:57AM

    Continue to keep your head up & trust God. I know it's hard, but to place your life in His hands in best thing for you to do. Take it from me, His timing may not be when you want it but it is always on time. I know that's cliche, but it's so true.

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ANNROW0354 7/7/2013 5:44AM

    You express a lot of personal insight. I have come to realize that God makes us wait because He is working things out within us; but you are so right, the waiting can be difficult.

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POEDAUGHTER7 7/7/2013 1:16AM

    Hang in there! Being single can be a real challenge. People always blame the girl when things go wrong, and sometimes it is the guy's fault too.... One side of the story is all people hear. P.S. your writing skills are great!

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