There's no denying it....
Saturday, July 06, 2013
It's been a rough day.... not sure what is going on... maybe this is full blow pms or something... but I just feel BLAH. Trying to talk myself into anything else, but it's not happening right now. Hoping that a good night's sleep and sunshine in the morning will help, but right now I just need to keep reminding myself that I am doing what is necessary to take care of me.
Things with Mark are ok.... he got his Rifaxamin in the mail today and started taking it. Expecting a couple days of unpleasant side effects before it all settles own. Probably doesn't help that he's also on two other antibiotics... :/ (all at the same time... sheesh) Thinking we may need to get a journal going for him where he can document when he's taking all his meds so nothing is forgotten. Would also be good to keep track of other stuff in there. We are looking at 6 appointments in the next 16 days, one of those being the dye contrast ultrasound, the other being the paracentesis where they will put him asleep for the procedure. Then doctors, doctors and more doctors. Just hope all flows smoothly and we get some ideas to give him a better quality of life.
My daughter called again and she is still having a really rough time. My heart just breaks for her and I STILL am wishing I could strangle her husband who has created this mess. He keeps blaming HER and I'm telling you, it's not her. It's him... it's ALL him. (And although I'm feelin' like a mama bear right now, I will be honest and say, when it's her, I'm not one bit afraid to tell her.... ) =) Anyway... please pray for her. I'm becoming really worried about her and also my two precious grandbabies who are living in the chaos of a parent who can't get his act together and is lashing out at everyone one close to him.
Anyway.... today my youngest turned 22. He's my only son. I'm so proud of how hard he's worked over the past couple years to try to get his life on track. I sent him a text, also a msg on facebook... we took him and his girlfriend out for dinner a few nights ago... but I guess I was kinda hoping he would show up or call or something today... =) But it didn't work out and that's ok. Just crazy to think about how the years have flown by.... and I'm getting OLD!!! haha.
SO.... after a day like this, and a long post that feels neither inspiring nor positive in much of any manner, I'm going to wrap it up and hope for a better day tomorrow.
~~Good night my sparkfriends~~