Saturday, July 06, 2013
My emotions have been all over this week. It has been so crazy that I'm glad it's finally over. I got back from a long weekend with friends to a start an even longer week of work. Work is just stressful at the moment but I'm trying not to let it get to me. We had a cookout on Wednesday for the 4th and I was put in charge of it. I had to coordinate the whole thing and even made a few of dishes in order to save money. On top of it I had a date Tuesday night.
I'm happy to report the cookout was a success. I thought the date went really well too but I'm not sure. The guy was 40 minutes late to the date. Ummm.... yeah, that didn't go over well but we still had a good time. That was of course several days ago and I haven't heard anything from him since. I know there was a holiday in there but still. I'm trying to remain positive about it.
I didn't really get to celebrate the 4th of July though. I didn't have any plans for it and ended up having to work that afternoon and then again early in the morning on Friday. So while everyone else was watching fireworks I was trying to sleep. It did not make me happy to say the least since I happen to adore fireworks and never miss a 4th. I then had to work all Friday. So when I got off work on Friday I was exhausted. I was proud of myself though. I ended up going to the gym before collapsing after dinner. I had to work again today but again managed to work out. I'm kind of proud of myself for it. That's three days in a row that I've worked out. I'm going to try and keep the streak up and see how long I can go.
In the meantime I'm trying to keep busy. I've mentioned before that I get bored easily. This plus the fact that I seem to be on my own as far as my friends are concerned. I've never really been one to do some things by myself. I've never been to a movie or out for dinner by myself. I've come to the realization though I need to do more on my own because it's not going to get any easier. The problem is that I already do so much on my own, do I really want to add to it? No but unfortunately I'm still by myself. So with that in mind I'm trying to do more so I won't be so bored and unhappy. My birthday is in a few weeks so I'm going to sign up for a class at the local art museum. I'm also thinking about trying something new and volunteering more. I signed up for the volunteering event after a really bad day and another bad date. I'm hoping if I can try and turn my bad experience into something good I'll be better for it in the long run. Who knows though, maybe karma will kick in and bring me some good news.
My volunteering is tomorrow and I kind of wish I could just forget about it. I'm exhausted after this week and really don't want to go but I made a commitment. I'm just hoping that it will be good in the end and make me happier and therefore healthier in the end.