Saturday, July 06, 2013
Have you ever just had one of those days ? Today was a good day for the most part. I should warn you just because it was a good day for me doesn't mean that it was good for everyone. I have a really bad reflex sometimes don't be to shocked when I tell you I roll my eyes. Oh I know it is funny and rude and yes I try very hard to control it buttttt sometimes it just happens. It is important to know that I have spent most of my life trying to stay out of the center of attention. So, sometimes I don't know how to take all the attention over this weight loss. I have even entertained the idea of changing gyms because I tend to be the talk of mine. I have gone from poor little fat thing that everyone likes, to weight loss diva. This is a lot to take in and even more to tolerate some days.
Since having hit that almighty mark news has flown. People i have no idea who they are all up in my face. I smile and say thank you when the compliments are made and I try to help when I can.
I find myself at a problem area though . People stop me at the gym to talk about the journey. Today I wasnt in the mood to dissect my program for them. I wanted to work out I wanted to sweat I wanted to be lost in my movements .So when asked about something I rolled my eyes and they didnt find it funny either. I know it was rude but wasnt it just as rude to stop my workout to answer your questions. there is not ever time when someone waits till i am done working to talk to me about the program . Which is not easy to tell you about . I work out 60 to 120 minutes a day depending on how i feel. Some days it is very entailed some days it is just walking. I work my tail off. but i try to keep it fun to me . When i like something i do it a lot when i dont like it well i dont do it. To loose this amount weight you leave your comfort zone. You step off a cliff and hope your wings fly you to your dream. I am not complaining I am just say as a little chubby chick sometimes I am not all smiles. I am just one scared obese person trying to stay focused on getting to the next part of my journey. And if along the way I offend you it was never my intentions to do so. But beware I will roll my eyes again.