This month, in addition to my regular workout (DDP Yoga) I am also doing the Jillian Michaels 30 Day Shred. Its a tough workout, but I always tell myself that I am even tougher!
Positive self talk really helps me to stay strong and to strive to do my best. I spent most of my life hearing others say such negative things about me. Those negative messages, pounded into my head over and over and over, eventually became my reality. I truly believed I was ugly, stupid, worthless and in the way. At home, I was either abused or ignored. In school, I was bullied and picked on. I was regularly beaten up. I withdrew into myself, hardly ever talking and barely eating. If I did eat, I would purge. If the stress and sadness got to be too much, I would cut myself. No one in my family ever noticed, and I was fine with that. I wanted to be ignored and invisible, because it was easier that way. As an adult, I put on a lot of weight, and I realized that being obese was just another way to be invisible. My self esteem was so low, I didn't feel that I deserved to be part of the world.
I joined Sparkpeople in 2008, and that is where I found love, friendship and acceptance. The caring and understanding of this community is what finally helped me to believe in myself as a person deserving a healthy, happy life. With the support of my Sparkfriends...and with the great example of those who have such amazing weight loss success stories...I began to believe in myself. I began to realize that I was NOT all those negative things that everyone has said to me for years. I was worthy and capable of so much more!
I used to always say such negative things to myself, but that has changed. Now, I only speak positively. Even if I go off plan and eat junk food, I do not berate myself. I only give myself encouragement and love. I love myself, and that is an awesome thing! Because I love myself, I want to take care of myself. I want to be healthy, fit and strong. I love myself enough to workout every day. I love myself enough to do my best to eat right. And I love myself enough to forgive myself when I get off track. I believe I am capable of reaching any goal I set for myself.
"Rather than fretting over whether other people love you or not,
learn to love yourself. If you love yourself, other people will usually
love you too, as they will feel captivated by your passion for life.
If not, it won't matter, because you love yourself!"
I hope you believe in yourself too. Please remember, you are always, always, always worth your best effort. Its never too late to start loving yourself enough to change your life for the better. I'm 52, and I'm going to make the rest of my life the BEST of my life...because I am worth it!