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Learning The Dance

Saturday, July 06, 2013

I’m feeling a bit frustrated again today.

Since returning to SparkPeople in February I’ve been trying to learn the weight loss dance…

… 2 steps forward, 1 step back

… or is it 1 step forward, 2 steps back?

I seem to be really good at the “Going in circles” move

I guess I’ve just never been much of a dancer.

Every day I track my food


And watch my diet

I participate in Spark Team challenges with gusto

I write blogs and post on my teams regularly

One of my teammates on the current challenge I’m participating in reported enthusiastically that she had lost 9 pounds while on the challenge. I was really excited for her and decided this morning to check the scale for my progress.
I’ve gained 2 pounds

I’m now only 2 pounds less than I was when I started in February

I had my thyroid removed in 2001 and weight loss became very difficult. My doctor told me I wouldn’t be able to successfully lose

Spark dietitian Becky told me it would be difficult and suggested I try keeping my daily calorie count between 1200 and 1300. That’s a really tight range! No luck after trying that either.

I joined a Thyroid support team for awhile but after reading several articles the site directed me to I only got more frustrated and depressed.

I want so badly for this to work and I feel like I’m pushing against a rock

I don’t give up easily. I won’t quit SparkPeople because the people and things I find here are important to me

I’m starting to feel like perseverance is my middle name.

I just wish success was my first.

I keep thinking that if I keep practicing the dance I’ll find the secret and the rock will move.

And I’ll find the “me” that’s been hidden for so long.

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Member Comments About This Blog Post
    I am also trying to learn the dance, and I seem to be doing the one step forward, two backwards. I love your block and how well you can express yourself. I'm not too good at that. Since rejoining Spark I have gained weight, but I'm not leaving. Sure won't get any off that way!
    1685 days ago
  • SHARON10002
    Carolyn, I'm in the same boat. Although I've not had my thyroid removed, I seem to have" misplaced" my metabolism lately. We've just got to keep putting one foot in front of the other, and be thankful for those Non-Scale Victories.

    I loved the pictures and lightheartedness of this blog! Think about the turtle, he won the race against the hare - slow and steady wins the race! Together emoticon !
    Embrace your inner turtle!!!!

    1687 days ago
  • WILDKAT781
    I'm so sorry you are having a rough time of it.

    1687 days ago
    I like your attitude and your perseverance. You WILL succeed! Thank you for a great blog. emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon
    Ania from Australia emoticon
    1687 days ago
    I'm glad you can share your struggles with your sp friends. I really enjoy the way you express them also! I loved the mouse with the cheese and the baby. Lol yes, you are great at persevering!
    1687 days ago
    I do so admire your perseverance. I also always enjoy your amazing sense of humor. Its got to be a combination of both of those that keep you going and I know your dedication will eventually be rewarded. emoticon
    1687 days ago
    Don't give up as you can be stick skinny and be unhealthy. Keep on dancing sooner of later you body has to give up the extra pounds. emoticon
    1687 days ago
  • AUNTB63
    I wish I had a magic wand that I could wave to help you along emoticon and being a emoticon is a pretty good thing. Look how cute he is. Steady on his feet always steadily moving forward one inch at a time. YOU can do this and we are here for you....one day at a time. emoticon emoticon
    1687 days ago
    Carolyn it will eventually move down. Are you eating a lot of salt? Have you tried just eating salad for one meal and not eating after dinner? Sometimes we want to lose so much that we stress out and that can make it hard to lose too. It is hard to tell . there are so many things that cause weight gain. I have an undetactive thyroid...had to take pills all of my teen years. Then was ok and now it is a little low but not enough to take pills.
    I don't know much about having your thyroid removed though.
    You can do this. Keep your mind positive and visualize getting on the scale and seeing it go down. Keep that in your mind off and on all day.
    Try Qi gong and see if it eases the stress or chair yoga. Have a great weekend and try not to worry.
    1687 days ago
  • FIT4MEIN2013
    I am so sorry it is so hard for you, Carolyn, but your perseverance is to be admired. So proud of you! emoticon
    1687 days ago
    Awwww, it will happen for you too! Just keep your chin up and it's gotta come off sooner or later! I struggle too with losing weight because of my low thyroid and with being on the beloved prednisone. But if we keep perservering, it will come off eventually I believe. I'm trying so hard to lose some of the 15# that I've gained since the holidays and I've lost 3 of it so far, so just hang in there and something's gotta give! emoticon I love your photos! The gal doing the jigity-jig or whatever she's doing with her happy face and of course, the other gal going the blow the scale to smitherings! emoticon emoticon
    1687 days ago
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