Saturday, July 06, 2013
Well, I knew it had been a while since I had been on SparkPeople, but I didn't realize it had been OVER TWO YEARS!! WTF! Don't know what happened other than life. I've been starting and stopping various exercise routines on and off for the past two years. Currently I am walking 3-5 times a week with the intention of improving to the point that I can start running. Right now, my knees cannot take the stress of running. But that's not why I'm here today.
I need to figure out what to do about work. Right now, I hate my job. I've been here a little over a year, and while I enjoyed it at first and found it to be a challenge, currently I am having trouble finding the motivation to do more than show up in the morning and log some hours. My productivity is in the crapper. Seriously low bordering on the why did I bother to show up. I've tried several different times to sit down and figure out what's going on in my head, but all I can come up with is that I just don't care. Which isn't 100% true. Yes, I have determined that this job is not the best fit for me and have started the process of searching for another one. Yes, I feel overwhelmed, but most of that feeling stems from me not being able to take the first step towards doing anything. I don't know what I can do about that. Most of the time I feel like I could just sit down and cry.