Saturday, July 06, 2013
Got my big test today--the APT. (Assessment of Professional Teaching.) I've been studying, sort of, all week. I am not big on studying. This probably sounds weird, because I'm a teacher, but I believe every student functions differently. I am a student that thrives on making learning natural and internalized. My study is done while I am learning something, while I am doing something, and not usually by sitting down and staring at a study guide. I study by practicing.
That being said, it was very difficult for me to sit down and actually read through notes this week. The only reason I studied differently was because a friend of mine is also taking it. This is her third time taking the test. She is a high-anxiety person, much more so than I am, and... to be honest... not exactly cut out for the teaching field. She loves children, and is going into early childhood education, but when it comes to actual classroom stuff her anxiety often overwhelms her. I don't need to gossip about her, though. The point is, she kept telling me how HARD the test was and that she had to hire a tutor and worked me into a frenzy of my own worrying.
Then today I talked to some other people--people who teach secondary, like me. And my other friend said that she didn't study for it at all, and she passed.
But the words that really put me at ease were from my adviser: "You'll do great. No worries."
Laurie, my adviser during college and one of my dearest friends, knows me inside and out. She knows my heart, knows my skills, knows my strengths and weaknesses. If she's not worried about it then neither am I.
So. I've studied. I've had my "focus" Vitamin Water. I've had coffee, and a delicious tuna melt, and I am ready. :)