I look at myself sometimes and wonder how did I get here -- I use to hear people say she let herself go and I really didn't understand what they meant years ago.... but I do now. When I was 125 I always thought I was too fat Oh to be that size again! I didn't appreciate it than but by the same token -- I'm different on the inside now.. My weight maybe more BUT MY OUTLOOK IS DIFFERENT!! I want to put more healthy things in my body.... years ago I maintained my weight by eating JUNK FOOD and no good food.... I would save myself for sweets ,,, not realizing the damage I was doing. But I'm older now -- and though my weight is not what I'd like it to be -- I AM BETTER!!