Saturday, July 06, 2013
Honestly, I had hoped to be at my goal weight by now. I still have 15-16 pounds to go. I've whined about my exercise habits and my difficulties cutting my calorie intake down. I have been at or near my current weight for nine months now, which is great but I'm not finished. How come I can't get it together and lose the last 15? Buckle down and get it over with? I know what I NEED to do, but putting education into practice is a huge hurdle. I guess the question comes down to this:
"How much do I want it?" Because if I do, then I'd be willing to make the sacrifices necessary to get there. That's it in a nutshell. If I really don't want this, then why do I continue to complain?
The good news in all of this is that my exercise is back on track. In the last week, I've worked out six over the last seven days, including three sessions that lasted 45 minutes to an hour. Three more weeks and I'll have a bona fide habit.
Now, my attention has returned to my diet. It's time for me to get back to the basics. This weekend I indulged in BBQ and soul food--both meals were heart attacks on a plate. Don't get me wrong--this wasn't mindless eating. This was me confronted with a choice and deliberately choosing to eat poorly. It's okay to do once in awhile, but I detect that I'm choosing poorly an average of three times a week.
Part of the problem is that it's been hot and I don't like turning on the oven when it's hot. My place overheats and gets uncomfortable. So, I need to rely more on stove top cooking, microwaving and throwing stuff on the George Foreman grill. That's fine, but I haven't been planning my meals or cooking much of anything. The consequence is that I'm eating out more and even if I make better choices, it's still too many calories, too often. For example, how many calories are in that chopped salad I love at my favorite restaurant. I have NO idea, but I order it because it sounds "healthy."
Also, in the last month, I've thrown an alarming amount of food out, which is terrible. I've been shopping for two, but I live alone now. Why am I buying all of this food? I end up not feeling like cooking, the food goes bad, I throw it out and I'm back in the store shopping for more food. This is wasteful and stupid and needs to stop. So today, I am pledging to put a menu together and shop for the ingredients. Tomorrow, I am going to prepare the food I will need for the next work week. It's not rocket science; it's what I should've been doing all along. It's just harder for me to do this in the summer.
Over a year ago, I visited a dietitian and she recommended I stick to 1,200 to 1,400 calories a day to lose weight. I recoiled at that thought of going so low (I had been eating around 1,600 to 1,700 calories a day) but in retrospect, she's right. Since the reunion is only 30 days away, I am going to work hard to reduce my intake to this limit, keep up the exercise and we'll see where I'm at in a month. At this point, I have nothing to lose but this weight.